#aMothersPromise on October 23, 2015. October 23, 2017 #JusticeForATi unfolding. I'm better today than I was this day two years ago because I'm learning how to cope with the pain & the cowards responsible are actively paying for their choice to murder my INNOCENT BABY GIRL!! #missionCONVICTION #WEWONTSTOP OCTOBER 23, 2015: Up early this morning again.....could barely sleep.....every time I wake up I think of my baby. The first picture in my mind this morning when I woke up is when I saw her for the first time after she was murdered. To see your child lying on that silver tray, zipped up in a body bag is so fuckin hurtful. Her face was already exposed because my sister & aunt had requested to see her while we were in the office of the funeral director making arrangements. I initially wanted to go down with them but my family didn't think it was a good idea. The longer I sat there, the more I wanted to go. My sister came back upstairs and said she looks just like herself and immediately, I went down to see her. Her dad was standing there beside her when I got there. We just stood there and looked at her in disbelief and shock. She looked as if she was just sleeping though. Her face was so pretty & chiseled because she had been watching what she was eating and had lost a few pounds. I wish I had taken a pic of her at that moment. Although she was beautiful for her home going celebration; in her natural state, before the embalming, she just had a glow and more natural look. I can't control my mind right now. It is all over the place. I can't seem to get comfortable no matter what I do. I find it hard to be a good parent to my son right now. I feel like I'm consumed with so much grief, unhappiness & a big void in my heart that hurts so bad. When I look in the mirror, I think "Why me, why HER?" The cold part about it is that the EVIL PERSON that stole her from me didn't have to do it because God granted him FREE WILL.....he could have done ANYTHING else that morning but he decided to play God and thought it was COOL to kill my baby!! What did SHE do to YOU??? NOTHING!!! What did I do to YOU??? NOTHING!!! (continued on next post)
