#mochanekotxt

[mochaneko]

thank you Tumblr Live banner for showing me a picture of someone’s ass???

I hate that I can’t adblock it because every time I do it manages to come back somehow

[mochaneko]

Anyone have any tips for how to get a cane to not hurt my hand? I’ve got a temporary disability (banged my knee up bad about a month ago and now I have to walk around with a cane) and as much as I have to use the cane, the handle is starting to cause some seriously deep pain in the base of my hand. Will wrapping the handle help? A glove (I was looking at wheelchair gloves for a bit but I’m not sure)? I just need help ‘cause I don’t know how I can alleviate this strain on my hand.

[mochaneko]

i don’t think i’ve made a tumblr post in forever but fuck i need to get something off my chest that i’m panicking about rn

i was born with serious dental problems - was missing teeth, had to get braces for all 4 years of high school, one of the teeth we thought was missing showed up, etc. two teeth i was missing were adult teeth, side by side. dentists agreed we’d keep the baby teeth as long as possible. a while back a dental tech (i never did like this dentist cause they were really rough and impersonal and stuff) was too rough with one of those baby teeth and knocked it loose and forced me to get it extracted, so I’ve been without one of my teeth for at least a decade. every dentist after that agreed we needed to keep the other baby tooth as long as possible, and the last time i saw a dentist (for an emergency because i don’t have insurance) two or three years back noticed the tooth was rotted in the gum and asked if there was any pain. i said no, i couldn’t feel anything, and they said we’d hold on to it as long as we could but it needed to come out the moment there was any pain or anything and gave me some info on an oral surgeon to see about getting implants. i knew implants were something i’d need to get eventually. the dentist between the bad one and the last one said if i didn’t get implants or something for those teeth, i would do irreparable damage to the other side of my mouth and it would just be an all-over disaster, especially financially. around that time my mom gave me a check to help cover some of the costs for an implant for down the road when i got to that point. and then several years later i was in a car accident that put me out of work for 4 months blah blah blah. anyway, i had to use that money and it’s all been gone for a while. the last couple weeks i’ve noticed the one remaining baby tooth getting worse. it looks disgusting and it’s felt really loose. it’s been gradually getting worse over the last couple weeks to where i’ve been opting for softer foods. i tried eating a sandwich the other day and a small piece of shredded lettuce got over to that tooth and i bit down on it and it caused a lot of pain. shredded. lettuce.

my therapist gave me an unused tube of orajel the other day which was really nice of her and i’m really grateful. i did use it once yesterday. but the tooth looks really bad now and feels so loose. i can’t even close my teeth normally without feeling pain and feeling the tooth shift. there’s been a bit of a metallic taste around the tooth today too, which can’t be a good sign. and i looked in the mirror and the tooth moves a good bit. like it moves enough where i can see the gum under it. i’m so fucking freaked out and i’m worried i’m gonna have to get an emergency surgery to get the tooth extracted and get a partial denture because i may not be able to afford that but i really can’t afford two implants rn and i just idk what to do.. i’m living super paycheck to paycheck thanks to a food allergy that makes it hard for me to find food that doesn’t make me sick literally every day and having other debts i have to pay off and literally living in debt just to eat and i’m just so freaked out and panicking idk what to do

[mochaneko]

So I haven’t posted in forever...

Things have been super crazy hectic. After getting back from DI Global Finals at the end of May, I got sick for a week +. Then after I finally got better, I had to drown myself in work for a convention I’m a tech for, and that convention was this past Friday through Sunday, so.. I finally have some downtime...

Some...

But within a week I’ll be house sitting for someone and I will be without my computer that week, which I am not looking forward to at all... :/

So I may not get any more art or anything done until the second week of July. ;;;;;

Things are just so stressful....

[mochaneko]

Super glad I decided to try my hand at digital art using hand-drawn, scanned pieces for my friend’s birthday art. My tablet’s been acting up and I couldn’t use it right, so having the hand-drawn stuff and mostly being able to just do touch-ups with the tablet worked out perfectly. :U

[mochaneko]

I am mentally exhausted

[mochaneko]

Why can't my brain process things like a normal human being?

[mochaneko]

boy howdy, is my mind just finding new ways to fuck up my anxiety and depression every day ᕕ( ᐛ )ᕗ