I'm normally not this heated on Tumblr since I tend to be the person to actively challenge the people who believe bullshit, but it's been a rough ten years for me and I'm not actually quiet about things anymore.
But I'm losing all of my patience and the only people I genuinely detest for being a thing are American Christians/Evangelicals. Genuinely, they can get the fuck away from me.
They're not only a big chunk of the most hypocritical and even evil people out there, but they are also the most stupid people on the fucking planet.
I'm so goddamn tired of having to justify my existence to these dim-witted, nonce-shilling, Bible shitting, sad excuses for human beings who relish in the suffering of everyone not like them.
Yes, this includes everyday people who secretly want to kill millions of their own neighbors, not just their public figures, mega-pastors, and politicians. They're part of the problem and why the world's on fucking fire.
Even being half a world away with my mom on the other side of the planet has me dreading Mother's Day, man. I refuse to tell my so-called mother "Happy Mother's Day" though, mostly because she's petty and downright evil. I won't, not after a year and a half plus of nothing but blaming me for her misery.
But days like this really show me how I don't have any parents left and there's definitely grief there, to be very honest. My mom is why my dad (my actual parent) is dead, and she's done nothing but make me suffer and shit-talk my dad over things he never did to her. She's why I had to take a step back, including leave work for a time, because her toxicity and malignancy are so bad it made my health plummet. It's been a while but I'm still not really recovered.
I'm positive that if I'd been 41 instead of 31, I'd have died the same way as my dad did; a fucking heart attack from her vitriol and selfishness.
I've gone very low contact mostly by now and I'm only in the picture still because my dad died without a will, and I'm not going to let my mother fuck him over in death too. No, the bitch will do right by my father, even if she's why he's dead and blames him for dying.
It fucking sucks though. Father's Day is hard for different reasons, because I miss my dad so much it hurts. My mother being a ghoul just makes that worse.
But I envy people who have or had good mothers. I'll never know what that's like. Happy Mother's Day for all the good moms and all. Hug your mom for me if she's a good one. If she's not, we can curse her together.
I'm going to get a bit political, so if you need to mind your mental health, or you're a Trumpet shill, you best not read but I will put this on Tumblr vs. my personal Facebook where I know waaaay too many people who shilled for the Orange Mussolini. Of course, Trumpets should leave my page immediately.
When I was 22-23 years old, back in 2015-2016, I would tell people that the Orange Man is a threat to the U.S. Specifically, back then, he would destroy the Republican Party that, for some fucking reason, thinks this grifting piece of shit was worthy of holding the Oval Office when he's an arrogant businessman known for bankruptcy, known for treating workers like garbage, known for fraud, and extensive lying. I also said he'd make the U.S. the laughing stock of the entire world, and the country deserves far better than him. I argued this nine, ten years ago. This was when I was fresh coming out of deconstruction, and leaving a largely conservative bubble. I grew up sheltered and in that bubble and didn't really begin escaping and truly seeing the outside world where I could, in fact, freely exist in until my very early 20s. I purposely wanted to know more about the wide world and other ideologies, which was suppressed in the private schools I was enrolled in. Even at my worst and most indoctrinated, I felt something was wrong, so I refused to continue any higher education in private, Christian colleges. I wanted a wider perspective.
It changed me, it continues to change me, for the better. I found out a lot about myself after I could escape it. That is why I will freely criticize beliefs held onto by people near me in my environment, because yes, I know what it is like to be shackled in a movement that prevents critical thought. But I could always see the massive piles of bullshit like misogyny and fascism even as a trapped teenager who didn't know differently, because. It felt wrong, even if adults all around me told me otherwise.
And I'm so goddamn glad I was aware enough to goddamn escape.
Yeah, my opinions changed based on new knowledge, new perspective, and key facts. But they haven't changed much from what they were in 2016, from being aware of what this disgrace does. In fact, the only reason they haven't changed much is because my opinions and beliefs about Trump and the Right have gotten way, way worse about these fuckers, because it's now been 9 years and one full term of Trump, a cult MAGA movement, a pandemic, etc. later.
The Republican Party, whatever was within it that had any sense of honor before if at all, is dead. It died with Reagan and got deeeeply pushed into the bowels of Hell by those after, but even they are just dead. All that remains is a MAGA cult where the MAGATs will outright destroy Republicans who do not agree with their methods. Democrats and anyone else not a MAGAT are just straight up considered Satanic, which is goddamn insane. When Mike Pence and Mitch McConnell go against the President because he's downright defying the Constitution and fueling life-threatening misinformation, you know it's bad.
23 year old me was never wrong. I wish I could tell her she was more than right. I am still supremely disappointed in how many people I know who just eat whatever the MAGA Cult run by two grifters take and trust it. You've got to be kidding me.
Do I want the government to be audited for corruption, etc? Of course. Yes, government agencies NEED to be held accountable on behalf of the people. I'm not arguing against THAT.
But I'm not going to trust a guy who got elected to avoid prison who already did great damage to the U.S. for four years nor will I trust a billionaire megalomaniac whose only interest is making himself even richer while he spouts Great Replacement neonazi conspiracy online and shills for an apartheid state. DOGE is not qualified, and they have no business doing what they do. Musk does not have the authority to do anything; hell, neither does Trump. The U.S. is NOT a place for kings. Our whole country's founding is because we can't stand kings. Congress is needed to authorize anything. Same with the Senate. The President can't just hand out money to his loyalists. You aren't supposed to be able to just buy your way out of the rule of law.
If you voted for TRump and are/were a Federal Employee and thought you'd get a buyout for retiring early, congratulations. You got played because you were too ignorant to see the writing on the damn wall and too foolish to not think about what it means. Same if you thought essential employees, you know...the people who do the actual work, would be kept vs. loyalist supervisors. All people did, if they voted Trump, was vote for an unemployment explosion and horror to come. If you're a civilian who voted for Trump who doesn't know who's getting fired from the Fed Govt, congratulations for drinking the kool-aid and showing everyone you don't know anything about how Federal Employment works. Same if you got healthcare, etc. via Feds and voted for Trump, then lost your health insurance, etc. because Medicaid, Medicare, and OPM were cut. Congratulations. This is your fault. Same for the CDC being unable to handle current outbreaks of outright preventable disease like Measles. As a former front-liner Fed employee who tried to fight corruption but also fight to actually serve the people I was supposed to, i.e. patients who got care via federal treatment facilities, etc., just NO. I also work for the private sector, trying to do the best I can to safeguard people's rights and health.
Same with all the people who think privatizing EVERYTHING and putting EVERYTHING under a few loyalist oligarchs means a better tomorrow. Nope that just cuts safety as well as drive up costs for everyone, as well as suppresses wages. Thanks for that. Thanks for depriving everyone under the age of 50 from having hope for a survivable future. You know, after cutting CDC, FDA, EPA, etc. you know, the agencies that track disease, drug/food threats, and environmental threats. Same with wanting to cut OSHA so people can just die on the job. Cutting FAA so planes just crash. Cutting national forests so land can just get destroyed by greedy big corporations.
I am not angry because I believed "lefties." All I had to do was watch the people around me and the world around me spiral into madness as people caught up in the MAGA cult welcomed Fascism and kings into the U.S. with explosive frenzy. You know, after many of our grandfathers and great-grandfathers fought a war where many millions of people died to stop the spread of Fascism in WWII. And welcome the crazy ass Evangelical MAGAT repubs who want to turn the U.S. into a toxic Protestant, Evangelical hellscape.
Yes, I am angry. Not because I like the Left, etc. As far as I'm considered, the Democratic Party is goddamn useless and complacent, only in it to be spineless waste who never actually take action to safeguard anyone. How else have key rights been rolled back? The reasonable Republicans died off in 2016. I'm angry because a lot of this shit affects everyone I know and love, along with myself, and millions of other people. Sorry but I'm not a psychopath who's okay with how millions suffer "just because it doesn't impact me." Even if it didn't impact me, I'd be disgusted, and well, it does impact me, so screw that.
I'm not gonna praise and "let live" or "agree to disagree" with people who actively want to take my civil rights away along with those of millions of people. I just want to live my life without these crazy ass MAGATs getting the power to tell millions of people they're not allowed to EXIST.
And no, people will not tell me to ignore the bullshit because "otherwise I'll never be happy" (looking at you, my dear mother) as if MAGAT and the Cult-47ers didn't just vote for people who want to see people like me, my friends, my family, colleagues, fellow citizens, entire communities outright erased.
Don't tell me "oh, it won't happen." That's what the Germans in 1930s Germany said, and look what happened there. I see it happen where I work, what rollbacks of safety laws does. I work in a highly-regulated sector. I see what cuts can and does do to at-risk populations of the sick, the poor, the disabled. I myself am affected even if I work. Years of experience have taught me otherwise, as well as my love for science and history.
Fascism is literally defined "Fascism (/ˈfæʃɪzəm/ FASH-iz-əm) is a far-right, authoritarian, and ultranationalist political ideology and movement,[1][2][3] characterized by a dictatorial leader, centralized autocracy, militarism, forcible suppression of opposition, belief in a natural social hierarchy, subordination of individual interests for the perceived good of the nation or race, and strong regimentation of society and the economy.[2][3] Opposed to anarchism, democracy, pluralism, egalitarianism, liberalism, socialism, and Marxism,[4][5] fascism is at the far right of the traditional left–right spectrum.[6][5][7]" It was first injected into Europe by Benito Mussolini and later by Adolf Hitler's regime. Fascist aspects influenced McCarthyism and other oppressive laws in the U.S., particularly as a response to 20th century Communism spread and just outright oppression of minorities.
It would be funny if approximately 75 million non-Trump voters and people who couldn't vote weren't dragged along the ride for this bullshit that 77.3 million people who inevitably fell into many cult-like techniques and ideologies didn't just subject the entire world to. I just want to goddamn survive along with millions of people in the U.S. alongside millions more in other countries.
Even towards people I love and respected, I don't respect at all for drinking the MAGA poison while celebrating with glee, and never will. I won't celebrate people who voted to sign my death warrant, or that of those of mullions, and never will. It's those folks' fault. They voted for this.
And the rest will go "I told you so."
I am going to likely slow down on some posts and arts for a while. My dad passed away suddenly on Oct 26th, and I've not been handling it very well due to grief and a lot of messy family business with my mother.
I'll be back, but temporary hiatus is in order.
Thank you for your patience and have a Happy Halloween.
So after Romulus I naturally rewatched all Alien movies (put AVP stuff as well but did those from memory) as well as a playthrough of Alien: Isolation because it deserves to be recognized, and wellp I def have a list.
Alien: The OG, the myth, the legend. 45 years old and still great
Alien: Isolation- A video game that actually does fair justice as the Xenomorphs are absolutely horrifying. Chef's kiss.
Aliens- Love it, but it doesn't have the same horror feel. Wish it kept more mystery and mystique, but overall, awesome.
Alien: Romulus- It's safe, it's not very innovative conceptually, but it doesn't have to be. It has that cosmic horror vibe I CRAVE and the characters' actions make far more sense here than more recent movies. Had a great time.
Alien: Covenant- Controversial and clunky, but conceptually it's fun. Still frustrating with characters behaving like they do though, like why is everyone allergic to spacesuits or PPE.
Prometheus- God why are a bunch of scientists, doctors, etc. so goddamn stupid. The deleted scenes would've saved this movie, and concepts are great but damn it's frustrating, so it is lower than Covenant. WHY ARE DOCTORS AND SCIENTISTS ALLERGIC TO SPACESUITS AND PPE IN THIS MOVIE. JUST RUN AWAY FROM THE SIDE. WHY.
AVP- Fanservice but fun. Glad it's not canon. Not scary whatsoever though. More fun when you're 12 or 13.
Alien: Resurrection- Too 90s weird. Why. This isn't the Fifth Element. Better than Alien 3 because it was more interesting, but just feels off. Laughed at plenty of scenes that aren't supposed to be funny.
Alien 3- Boring. Hate almost all characters. Jesus Christ why did you kill off everyone worth caring about. Why.
AVP: Requiem- I still haven't recovered brain cells from watching this movie.
2. Muirren has a pretty good relationship with her mother, especially considering her father was not around after a while, due to war. Overall, Muirren has a good parental dynamic. Muirren and Rheza having similar personalities and differences where it works helps that dynamic.
33. I'm sure this is for Kara, SO I'LL GO WITH HER. It depends. The vast majority of the time, Kara tends to internalize and self-deprecate, although she tries hard to improve. She can have rather unrealistic goals for her own improvement though. If she gets defensive, it's rare.
36. Jerrard's a snob in general, but he's especially snobby and belittling of people he dislikes. He will put them down just for self-satisfaction.
