and tbh going back to the fact i shifted, i am walking proof that even if you wanna give up, you feel you can't do it or you start doubting that it still is fucking real dude! and i often wanted to be in control of things, of the shift itself. scared of just being launched into it or being scared of the moment it happens. but truthfully it isn't fucking scary. i worried for NOTHING! it literally just felt (for me) slowly opening my eyes from a night of sleep! that's it!
scared for nothing, wanting control for nothing. just to deadass become aware of another reality like it was nothing. like another day. because it is!
yup! you heard it right! moondrs, 5 years later, has minishifted. THANKK YOOUU THANKK YOOUUU but moon- what happened? i'll tell you wtf happened, i shifted! yippiieeee i breathe a sigh of relief and enjoy the fruit of my success.
but seriously, this has been a long time coming and i'm so excited to shift now. i'd been feeling so bad about my journey and then this experience just sort of...gave me everything to keep going. so, if you need to hear it from me, the bitch who kept complaining over and over that she hates shifting, she wants to give up, this that and the third. IT'S REAL!
08.06.25 | method: wbtb (in hindsight)
rundown of my day is just that i went to work and had been stressed as fuck. i got off, ate dinner, came home, chilled all day until it was time for bed. i don't remember exactly what time i had been going to bed and then waking up though but i know i was up at least from 11 to 1 and then forced myself to go back to bed so i can be up today for work. anyway!!
i struggled for a moment to sleep or at least just lay down. just due to me having that cat nap before actually going to bed. but eventually i did. as i was laying down i do want to mention i had on a slade subliminal. probably the only subliminal channel igaf about when i try to shift.
prior to the shift, i did have a brief moment with paralysis. whenever i am in this state, the evil thoughts creep up and go "hey, you open your eyes rn something's gonna be in the corner of your room or just outside the door or right by the bed" but somehow my brain just went "pssshh nah stfu" and it did. BAHAHAHA anyway unimportant.
i did visualize a bit which i typically do not do. not because i don't want to but because normally i can't. it doesn't work for me so i just simply put it to the side and say "hey, my subconscious knows what i mean, i don't need to do it" so i don't bother with it. i did visualize my s/o, rami. i didn't pressure too much on detail, just things i know of him. his facial structure, hair. no detail just a silhouette if anything.
this next part is confusing to me. i felt my eyes sort of twitching? moving? a lot. i kept my eyes closed and then it just felt like they were opening on their own. sometimes i experience this when i shift that my eyes just open when i'm attempting to shift but this time it wasn't to my own room. but to a room somewhere else!
i shocked myself tbh. normally i don't get so far because i sike myself out. but this is something. i'm taking it as something. i won't give myself shit for not being able to ground and hold it because this is progress! i'll get there and i'll just keep going until i get it. wbtb goated. moon rate: 10/10
(COMPLETED!!) BEATLES GIRL DR SCRIPT TOUR — GOOGLE DOCS VERSION
— can i hear a little commotion for the script? (cheering ensues) serious note, i had a lot of fun scripting this 'new' version of the script and backstory of myself in this awareness. i can't wait to experience it! i'll be updating again with flat visuals because..well- it's almost 1 am now and i need to be to work by 9... time to sleep/shift! rah!
