#morzansson

[knittingwithhighlighters]

"Fear is good in small amounts, but when it is a constant, pounding companion, it cuts away at who you are and makes it hard to do what you know is right.” This quote by Murtagh (from Christopher Paolini’s Inheritance Cycle) basically sums up how I feel about the end of my career as an undergrad. Namely, the fear of doing my homework, the prospect of which quite literally scares me.

[dngerclose]

y la memoria se queda mal puesta en mi piel. fingers trace over and over again , an endless mindless misery. as noting but the echos of memories dance like twelve princesses in the darkness behind tired eyes. every beat lash was a dangerous reminder , that not only was he too ( rash ) to complete any sort of task in an efficient manner. but the endless turmoil and misplacement that wrecked each individual brain cell was ( at the end of the day ) --- a tragedy. eduardo had lost himself at death , the fight of justice had left a body empty and depraved. gone & yet still here , a translucent version of what had once existed. visible to the naked eye , but wrong in so many ways. as if he were in fact , not quite human. which felt correct , as humans were never quite alone --- but the young mexican was somehow , always alone. fingers beating against the inside of his palms trace the same pattern , entierame en mi tiera.

eyes glaze over once again , lost in and endless slate of grey in his mind , that is until a voice as warm as the scorching desert sun fills his body with a warmth long gone. eyes dance over , tired eyes ; « me canso , can you please --- tell me where we're goin' ? te voy a matar , fuckin' gringo. »

for @morzansson , tagging @kinghaargrove so keltie sees it