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[tendrilled]

milady and i have been closer than ever,

but i have found less time to write and post. so many changes in these past few months! life is truly relentless.

[tendrilled]

my princess always has a calm and cool voice. the weight of the crown is heavy, after all.

i've always had this wicked desire to see a crack in that otherwise perfect composure. so i always freely whisper the quips i think of in the company of others.

they do not find them funny at all. it's a pity scoff—no, not a laugh—every time......

[tendrilled]

...the dawn always comes. and my princess always wakes to even the slightest glint of light.

their eyes flutter open, gaze gradually taking note of our states, the sky, and eventually landing on my... soggy eyes stricken with grief. there's no telling what they're thinking... but as their lips open, i fervently utter my excuses, my apologies:

such desires for my princess are unacceptable! the grim consequences and scandals are life-changing, the princess has so much to lose and i'm a terrible maid—

—only to be interrupted when they heave a mildly annoyed (and maybe amused?) sigh and tug me close.

such a warm embrace,

and according to them, such a foolish me.

maybe there's nothing to worry about... at least for the next half-hour.

[tendrilled]

disheveled and groggy amongst silks and lace, i replay memories of last night.

we intertwined in ways a princess and a mere servant never should, in ways that make my heart leap to the moon and back, make my limbs tremble and thoughts race with restless, anxious need to please them. gain more of their favor and fondness. please them further—

but the deep gloom of the twilight sky penetrates deep within me, my awe-filled gaze at my princess's sleeping countenance becoming dyed in melancholy...

the deep purples remind me of transience. reminds me that,

while my love remains pure, there is no honor in these circumstances. only shame.

a maid shouldn't yearn for its princess, and it should certainly avoid making its princess fall in foolish love, then fall out of good graces with the court.

it's my job, after all, to make sure my princess doesn't fall... especially not for me. 💦

[tendrilled]

okqy. yes, i gave into my princess's desires to kiss me with tongue while they were sick... the results are exactly as one would expect ...

[tendrilled]

my princess directed me to run around the city with their 3ds to streetpass strangers for the next 3 hours...

i don't think i've come close to their desired quota.

[diamante-provocante]

ninguém vai abraçar voce como eu, ninguém o vai amar como eu, ninguém faria as coisas que eu fiz por voce,  sabe porque? porque eu o amo amava d verdade, aquele amor que não iria mais acabar, aquele que iria morrer comigo e agora? agora voce perdeu a mulher da sua vida, porque ele no fim a quer mas o amor proprio é maior, ele prefere outras coisas q a sua vida com ela d volta... e ai se foi tudo...