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@mpaphrodite
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Seokjin bites his lower lip. Aphrodite said that she won’t mend his broken heart, which frankly relieves him.
He’s sure he would regret it later if she did, because wouldn’t she be taking away his feelings too? He’s a bit of a stubborn romantic in that taking away a broken heart just like that, with just the snap of the fingers, seems so wrong. It took him a long time to get to the point of liking - no, he can say loving - someone this much that his heart felt like glass had been shattered inside of it, and then the muscles and arteries had been used like bread to pick up the pieces. It f*c- really hurts, yes, but it’s supposed to have feeling. Otherwise, what’s the point?
Even still, he’s a bit hesitant in following her. Goddess of love, or not, she’s still a stranger to him. And he doesn’t want to be a burden.
But she did offer.
So he takes it, and with it, deep breaths to calm his nerves and soothe the chance that he’ll burst into tears.
“I, um. There’s this guy I’ve been friends for a while - Jungkook. He’s a good kid. Quiet; shy in a cute way, I guess; kind of lazy; really, really competitive;” Seokjin almost laughs at that. “Kind of a perfectionist, really prideful. But we became friends, and after a while I guess his good qualities just really started to... latch to the back of my mind? And then the front? Because he’s also really nice, and gentle, and understanding, and playful, and passionate, and talented - like he may not be the smartest, but he’s so good at dancing - and it doesn’t hurt that he’s also incredibly handsome. I don’t know.” Seokjin wrings out his hands. “I thought for a while that maybe he liked me too, so I didn’t do anything and thought I’d just let it run its course to a relationship or something? But then he went on this blind date, and I didn’t think much of it, but I guess they really hit it off or something, because he asked me for advice a few times - although why he’d ask me, I don’t know, because I’ll say right now that I have no experience in this kind of thing. I still didn’t take it quite seriously, though.
“I left Mount Phoenix rather abruptly a few months ago and only came back recently. I didn’t tell anyone because I was so rushed. My dad, he - he’s in the special forces and he came back from an assignment really injured for the first time, so as soon as I heard that, I kind of just rushed out on the first flight with my older brother. He called the university for me, but he didn’t tell any of my friends because he doesn’t know them that well, and I was too out of it, I think. My dad’s doing a lot better now, which is why I’m back - my brother and I healed him a bit, since my mom’s the Chinese goddess of healing - and as soon as I got back, I went to Jungkook’s place with a bunch of souvenirs, and, I don’t know, expected him to come running into my arms like some kind of idiot. But it was really tense, and he got really close, and I just - I just kissed him and I don’t know why, and he blurted out that it must’ve been a mistake on my part, an accident, and that he’s dating the girl he went on the blind date with and I ran out and I’ve been feeling so broken ever since.” Seokjin takes shaky breath, pursing his lips, and shuts his eyes tightly to chase away the wetness and stinging and heat behind their lids.