#mrvalued

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I miss Jaxon so freaking much

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"I can lose you like that if I don’t lose you today. I’ll let you go. If you stay.”

If I stay (2014)

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I wish that thinking about me bothered him as much as thinking about him bothers me.

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He doesn't snore the way you used to snore. He doesn't breathe the way you used to breathe.

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3/13/15 1:36PM

I miss you and I'm crying and all I want is to be able to talk to you again. I love you 😔

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It's so hard for me to not just pick up the phone and call you in the middle of the night when I can't sleep. I miss you baby. I miss you so much.

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BABY I SAW BABY BEARS TODAY AND THEY WERE SOOOOOO CUTE I WISH SO BADLY THAT YOU COULD HAVE BEEN THERE 😭❤️❤️❤️ I love you so much and I hope you're doing well 😘

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I've been really strong for two weeks. And I tried all day today to have an "even though valentines day didn't turn out the way I hoped, I know Jaxon and I are still together in spirit today and that's what matters" outlook. I really did. I tried. But my whole body is aching and I've spent the last 10 hours blinking back tears, because we're NOT together today. Not even really in spirit. For once, don't feel like he's with me. I don't feel like I'm writing to him. I feel like I'm writing to myself, and that's a horrible feeling. It's horrible to be alone again. It's horrible, because I feel like I'm with him, but he's not with me. I need reassurance. I need to know that he feels the way I do. And I don't think I'm going to get that. I wasn't supposed to spend today the way I did. And it would have been a good day, any other day. But I was miserable. Because we weren't together today. And we were supposed to be.