𝘈 𝘭𝘪𝘵𝘵𝘭𝘦 𝘤𝘰𝘯𝘧𝘦𝘴𝘴𝘪𝘰𝘯. I’m not sure that I’m a natural mother. In fact I know I’m not. As a teen I never wanted kids. Until I met the man who brought a little bit of family into my life I don't think becoming a mum really entered my my head. But then once we had decided we wanted children it took 5 years and a round of fertility drugs. The first twins were born and I have to say it’s not what I imagined. Motherhood was hard work. I longed to be back at work, But having never had a career there was nothing to go back to. This is why I love blogging and heading out to blogger events. It gives me a step into work yet I’m still able to be there as a mum. I’m 8 years into motherhood now almost and it’s still no easier. I mean there are parts that are easier. Parts of motherhood scare the s**t out of me. Parts want to make me run far far away and scream. Parts make me shouty infact a lot of the time I feel overwhelmed and shouty and I hate it. Parts though make my heart swell, make me sick with love. I feel like I have to work hard to be mum. It’s the hardest job I’ve ever had. Don’t get me wrong though. I know how lucky I am to be able to call myself a mum. I know the heart ache of infertility, I’ve been there. Which I think is why I feel like a guilty for feeling like there is more to life than being mum. I have no real reason for this post except to say that If you feel the same your not alone. I dunno maybe I am alone in Feeling like this? #channelmumvillage #mumsnetparents #emmasdiaryparentpowerpanel @officialemmasdiary @channelmum #mumlife #twinstwice #twins #twinmum #shoutymum https://www.instagram.com/p/B2y3NGzF89C/?igshid=1vsyv9iit857a
