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[forhisfamily]

i keep thinking about bal and his survivor's guilt and like i just realized how badly it hits him when mhairi dies at the start of awakening but that's just what the joining does to some people and he's the warden-commander so he can't really?? show how he's feeling??

but ugh all these good people just die and he's so tired of it because he's seen way too many good people die bad deaths and ugh

balfour cousland is too tired for a man of twenty-three

[liwyatan]

                                       Baby, there ain't no sword in our lake--                                                       Just a { funeral wake }