#muse's confessions

[spiketheforsakensoul]

😊- their best memory

Muses’s Confessions

I’ve lived a long time and there a lot of choice memories to choose from, so this is a particularly hard question to answer.  It was after Fred died, or became Illyria, I guess is the gentler way of putting it and I realized that I wanted to do something not because it’s it’s what she would’ve wanted, that it was what I wanted.

I’ve spent my life and un-life, doing things according to whut I thought one woman or another wanted, that I never stopped to think about whut I wanted.  Think that was the day I started growing as a person, you know?

[spiketheforsakensoul]

😍- someone they love

A Muse’s Confessions

It’s tough choice isn’t it?  I mean, I know I love Buffy, but I can’t exactly put it into words like I could with Drusilla. Love always feels a certain way inside, but you love for different reasons with each.

With Dru, I was enraptured the moment I saw her. It was like she knew exactly what was rattling around in the back of my head all the time and she accepted me for who I was, and later gave me everything to be what I was.  Sure we had fights, but somehow we always made up, and she always came back... Until she pushed me away.  Just like when we met, she knew what was there before I did.

Buffy, on the other hand, started like it did with all slayers up until that point. I’ve always been obsessed with them, but I feature when I couldn’t kill her and I learned more about her... She kind of just became this unreachable thing that I wanted.  I saw the person she was, not just the slayer anymore. Someone who was the other side of the coin.