This gif 😭😭😭 he looks so sad and I hate that he's drowning it in alcohol. I don't know this scene, or if that's true, but that's how I'm interpreting it.
But also he looks so, so cute. The way he bites/purses the side of his lip as he tilts his head down. His cute little cheeks getting all round as he leans over. His normally strong chin getting rounder, and the skin of his neck wrinkling around his collar with the weight of his head tilting.
Those soft, deep, dark brown eyes as he looks off in the distance, zoning out in his thoughts. Looking deep in his drink before making the decision to drown them out. A softer decision. Not one that requires him to throw the drink back, but a sip that he wants to savor. His eyebrow lifting as he makes it. His soft, lengthy eyelashes pouring over his eyelids.
That one cute little curled tuft of hair hanging over his collar that you see on his neck as he leans forward. How soft the rest of his hair looks, parted and combed over to the side.
The way his cute, soft, large hands hold his glass. How his pinky holds the weight of it at the bottom, while the rest of his fingers encompass the whole of it, making a normal sized glass look tiny.
The cute little wrinkles on his forehead and between his eyebrows, from years of stress. Years of experience. He isn't old, though sometimes he claims to be. Sometimes he might say he feels it. He's aging, like all of us do. But he only looks more and more beautiful as he does. He's not trying to change himself like so many do, not that there's anything wrong with doing what makes someone feel better, but he hasn't.
Those lips. So soft and plump. The way they purse and make the skin crease. The way the center of his bottom lip turns inward into a dip.
His tie and his jacket and that white button up shirt. The way his chest moves with his breath as he grabs his drink.
I wish I could make him feel better. Hugging around his torso or giving gentle kisses. Cuddling while sitting on his lap.
In this gif we see Javi, but the same way I felt my writing leaning in towards Pedro, I see him in this gif. Obviously all the characters are Pedro, but sometimes it's easier to see him. I see him here. These are his features. Sure, the emotion and the scene is Javi. The outfit and the hair is Javi. But those lips, eyes, hands. Those are Pedro. The way he chooses to purse his lips, or lift his eyebrow. Those decisions for the scene are from Pedro.
I'm so overwhelmingly in love with this man that I'll probably never even meet. And for some reason, it's gifs like these that really bring it to my attention. Gifs like these, and photos like these, that I see him. Where I see all those features that I think are so incredibly beautiful.
Anywho, I just wanted to give some attention to this gif and say how I view it. I have a lot of thoughts on it and even more than I said, all of which still feel like they weren't the right words to describe my feelings. But I just think noting his beauty is something that should be done frequently. It should be fully appreciated.
Also credits to the excellent gif maker, @iamasaddie. I know nothing about making gifs, but the fact that a gif can make me feel so many feelings is worth recognizing. It isn't just a matter of making it, because it was also a decision to make this scene a gif.
