#my anything

[imnotsunshine]

i refuse to be sick on a night where karl jacobs is streaming after so long. go away shoo i wanna feel fine leave me alooooone

[bionicbyronic]

gonna g take a freezing cold shower to see if that keeps my eyes open 

[else-self]

My Anything

I spend a lot of time thinking about the human body and the human mind. In the smallness of actions of an individual. In the global mob levels of exposure to culture. I think of me, friends, artists, scientists, humans. I think on animals. Poetic minds, lyrical souls, hurting hands, vaporized emotions. The series of history we read and talk about but can't walk through ever again. That time I expect to come through my door but never does, least not how I dreampt. Dreams themselves are a part of my life even when I'm not awake. I do these things without thinking on why I do them. The management of what I invest my energy into, the fucks I give about which shit, is not as often considered as it should be. I think it might be starting to scar me, these attachments. I'm not saying I need to sever. I'm not saying anything really. All these words are words from me and when you read them you follow the traces and outlines like doodles connected to dots in an order different from mine in many ways. Not like a snowflake, but like a maze in three dimensions rotating across every axis without gravity to pull in any direction. You are in space. You are in the universe. You are not abstracted form it and neither am I. My mind isn't a shelter. It's my mind, my universe, my anything. I'm tired by things that aren't different and by the things that are different. So why am I attached with a cord that doesn't even exist?

[sourwolf]

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[jaclynxxmarie]

My Anything

V1) For the first time, I actually saw this coming/ I knew going into it I/ was taking the risk of my life/ but, I stood still when I should have been running/ not your fault; you were nothing but honest with me/ knew I wasn't the only one/ you just wanted to have some fun/ convinced myself that that could make me happy/ and, now, I'm breaking down inside/ 'cause I feel like I've lost my pride/ but, I'll keep praying that you come around/

Bridge) I never expected you to want to be my everything

Chorus) But, if you don't wanna be my anything/ then just tell me, and I'll let you leave/ walk away, pretend like nothing ever happened/ don't even want a little piece of me/ well, that's okay, it won't be easy/ it'll be harder than you could imagine/ but, I'll continue actin'/ like it's perfectly fine/

V2) Well, I won't lie, I was hoping that I would be wrong/ that maybe you would change your mind/ decide that I was worth your time/ and you wanted to be with me all along/ I'm jealous and my heart hurts, but I know it's stupid/ I have no right to feel this way/ and even though it sounds cliché/ I promise it was me, not something you did/ but, you know you could mend my heart/ by giving "us" another start/ and letting me prove that I'll make you smile/

V3) I've still got some growing up to do, I won't deny it/ I might be naïve and insecure, won't try to hide it/ feel like I've lost my dignity, guess I should try to find it/ I can't tell/ maybe it's about time I let somebody treat me well/ 

© Copyright Jaclyn Marie Reinhart

Lyric and Melody written by Jaclyn Reinhart, April 18, 2013

[mishikaiya]

Celeste Haiku

Celeste is the best My Dear Heart has no equals My Anything (heart) 

[mishikaiya]

Just wanted to remind everyone

Celeste is the best ever, kay?