#my divinations

[chaotiismsxcolyte]

I’ve done 2 more for the mentor challenge thing. The Moon is a frequent “guest” in my spread, so it was a simple logical choice.

The Priestess however boldly and unexpectedly offered herself out of the deck.

I’ve been called out by both of my Mentors for my shit. Twice.

The Moon shows my delusions here: that I avoid problems that are not going to go away until I face them, in particular my financial matters (well... as we say in Russia about being broke, "my finances are singing romances"). Same goes for specific non-corp spouse problems. I gotta sort them as the cards have blatantly pointed this out by the card that has no obscure meanings. The Priestess is about my spiritual path as a rule whenever it appears in any of the spreads I'm doing. According to the cards, my spiritual journey has changed and no longer stagnant. All I have to do is open my eyes and evaluate what is actually going on as well as who's the passenger and who is the guide.

[ladyxerra]

I got myself a new deck and I love it! I shouldn't have spent so much money (£15) but when cards call out to you it's hard not to yield to this call

[ladyxerra]

When I've seen this card for the very first time, I thought of this:

[chaotiismsxcolyte]

When I asked my deck why my mother had made a stupid choice between the two things where one of them clearly made no sense, I wasn't disappointed in getting this "reply". The World is the main card here and the other two give it depth. To sum it up, despite knowing she could've done even both things IF she wanted, she chose her pride. Like, her literal moral "throne" was about to collapse, and that was more important at the time. She was intent on hurting someone else but in the end that only confirmed her as a dishonest person. She refused to see herself for what she was, for that would also mean admitting that she was wrong. "Throne maintenance" overtook the common sense... *sigh* Even the deck can see it. LOL. yap that was an "angry divination time" 😂😂😂

[chaotiismsxcolyte]

[ NØ CØMMƏNT ]

[chaotiismsxcolyte]

I’ve done one more divination, to get to know a god (that’s also in my ‘divinations’ tag for reblogs). I drew the first card out, it didn’t make much sense, so I pulled another one. Those wands are better in a pair. I got the “I always win, you just relax” vibe and “I’ll lift your burden” from the second one o.o The last one tho: “just take the bleeping cup” meme, srsly. That gave me a certain vibe of:

pfft.

Then I asked extra questions, “why are you that vague about Yourself?” and “what influence do You represent in my life?”

I asked question A twice. Because that was like, a very frivolous answer, like “I do what I want” and “because you’re a child”. And the second one was like, “because the boat is already afloat, you’re there regardless, and I’m sailing it”.

That last one was ominous, too. I have a funny feeling that He got slightly annoyed by my questions. No comment for that last card needed, I think.

I GOT ENOUGH DIVINATIONS FOR TODAY.

I got a God in my head. I do not recommend it.

I wanna scream tbh. That’s very frustrating!

[chaotiismsxcolyte]

So I’ve done that goblinspread ™ , or the spiderweb spread I’ve recently reblogged. 100 out of 100 iRecommend. That was very cruel. I didn’t realise I could’ve simply handpicked the card out of the pack instead of letting it choose anything at random. My deck “chose” the most frequently inundating card (I used the whole deck like it’s done for any spread that’s why this is so weird). As for the advice here I got no words… frigg. I’m frigged.

[chaotiismsxcolyte]

As I've now got several decks, i need to scribble their names on equally cut pieces of paper for a random draw for spreads.