#my struggles

[kommandonuovidiavoli]

Everyone's good at drawing Nigel's bald head in some cartoon/ish style.

Try doing that shit with human proportions I HATE IT SO MUCH

[sinistertophat]

Gonna write some of my silly System Church comic ideas down because I'm too burnt out to make them into comics rn;

[Scene: Tucker and Caboose are together. Classic Blue Team hangout. "Church" enters frame]

Oh no. Not this one. -Caboose? What the fuck you mean "this on- oh hey church Hello Tucker, Caboose. [Some sort of verbalization of distress/dislike] Oh he's doing that thing again. Which one is it this time?? He's one of the mean ones! Meaner than normal Church. He always hurts my heaaad and does that laugh... [text fades out as he says more] You Fools! You really think you can figure me out that easily/! Oh. O'malley.

[giggle-bee]

the urge to make tickle content of my ocs but I can’t share my ocs with anyone bc I’m afraid of infodumping or barraging people with my stuff

I don’t wanna make posts ab them cause. I don’t want people who know them to stumble across this blog and know it’s me and go GASP OMG YOURE A FREAK yk

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[marianadecarlos]

You're blog is disgusting! Why are you defending inbred colonizers! They ruined the lives of millions! Stop wasting your talent making fanarts of these people!

Honestly, I am tired! I am tired of some people telling me my art and dreams waste time. I am tired of receiving hate comments like this. I am tired of ableists trying to dehumanize those who are disabled. I am tired of people bullying Charles II and Mariana of Austria, whose efforts are barely recognized. I made this blog to share stories of them that are rarely covered in media. I wanted to share the truth behind these historical figures.

[wolftwins]

I'm throwing in the towel.

( I think I'm done with art.)

I have tons of wips and never finished them.

If I had a portfolio it would be nothing to show. I barely made progress and for the ones I did are lost somewhere.

I don't stand out nor fit in with the rest.

I was already struggling with imposter syndrome. But, now it's worse since ai could probably do better.

I kept most of my works to myself anyways. I see no value in my art.

I'm not fully happy with my results.

And I figured by now I would find my niche. But, I haven't.

So, I'm going to purge and get rid of my old stuff and probably move on.

[itosevenito]

No matter how many times I explain to people that the terror is set in the Arctic in the mid 1800s they will always tell me to send the men to therapy.

I AM PHYSICALLY UNABLE TO!!

[canuck-eh]

I wanted to apologize to my former hotch moots because I left for a break and ended up not coming back to the fandom. Just… I still think about y’all. I still care. I still cheer for you from afar. I’m delighted to see y’all thrive. I know I unfollowed most of you because my mental health tanked so badly I couldn’t even look at Hotch without having a panic attack, but please know it was far from personal. The very idea of writing/reading anything related to him made me so panicky… and seeing my tl filled with him was a constant reminder that I was/am a failure as a person and writer, and that I suck... Anyway. I’m not making excuses. I’m just trying to apologize.

I don’t even know if you’ll see this… or if you care enough to read this. I’ve tried reaching out to some of you, but it’s okay if you’ve moved on/don’t want to hear from me. No hard feelings 💙 I get it.

Anyhoo… I recently started seeing mental health professionals (other than my therapist), and while I do have anxiety, it seems I may be on the spectrum as well which in turn then causes my anxiety… 😬 I don’t have my official diagnosis yet and it could take a while, but I’m starting to understand myself better.

I’m just sharing this so hopefully you get some insight into who I was when we first connected.

Alright. Enough from me. Have a nice one, folks 💙