#mysecretthoughts

[queenofspades1995]

"Though my words may be deemed old-fashioned, it can't conceal the burning desire within me. These lines serve as an intimate embrace, my distinct love language reserved solely for you. As destiny leads you into my life, I'll recite each verse to you. I pray you'll find no strangeness. It is through this unique path that I can utter these words. I await your arrival with an outstretched hand, poised to intertwine with yours, as we script a symphony of happiness in our shared journey."

- queenofspades1995

[queenofspades1995]

"I sense a deep connection between us, where our thoughts and emotions seem to align seamlessly. Without making any assumptions, I can feel the significance of my presence in every one of your actions. Yet, just like in the past, I'm haunted by the fear of being abandoned once more. My heart belongs to you, and I find my true home in your arms. I know it's you. I comprehend every step you take and the protective shield you provide for me, and I wholeheartedly appreciate all of it. I express my profound gratitude to you, for I'm aware that you're unwaveringly there for me." ♡♡♡

- queenofspades1995

[queenofspades1995]

To: My soulmate.

You might not be aware that I've observed your newly-shaved mustache. Have you realized how your appearance has become even more invigorating? I also cherish the moments when your smile graced me. Witnessing your joy and radiant smile is an indescribable delight. However, my heart now bears a heavy burden because you've once again vanished from my view. I yearn to lay my eyes on you once more. You've lingered in this locale for an extended period, yet I've failed to convey the depth of my affection for you, and that is the source of my current sorrow.

From: Your baby ✿

[queenofspades1995]

In tranquil moments, I wish for your well-being. It's crucial for you to comprehend that my influence is most profound in the tranquility of silence. I aspire for you to discern the depth of my affection and your significance in my life. Moreover, I ardently affirm that each day, I make the conscious choice to cherish you. In the moment we have the opportunity to engage in a conversation, I hope you'll grasp the essence of my imperfect expressions, the flutter of my anxious heart, and the eloquence in my gaze. Even if I struggle to articulate it perfectly, I trust that you can perceive the rhythmic resonance of my ♡.

- queenofspades1995

[queenofspades1995]

There are things you often want to do, like what the person you love does, even if it's detriment to your health. You wanted that because you knew it was the only way to get closer to them. Just keep doing it until your body gets used to things you wouldn't normally do because that's what truly makes you happy. #palpitation♡

- queenofspades1995

[queenofspades1995]

"Perhaps there are endeavors that simply aren't destined for me. Avoid pushing too hard, as doing so may become the source of sorrow. Instead, embrace life's natural course to lessen the pain of realization."

- queenofspades1995

[queenofspades1995]

"One fateful day, the last time I laid eyes on you. I cherished you right from the start. Regrettably, I heard you utter the words 'not possible' three years ago, which prompted me to venture into the search for someone resembling you in character. In the beginning, it brought me joy as I glimpsed traces of you in that person. However, as time elapsed, I found myself left behind. I am well aware that this person isn't you, yet I can't help but wish it were indeed you."

- queenofspades1995

[minddesgn]

Go ahead, kill me.

It’s crazy because as much as I wanna die, I’ll continue to put on that seatbelt. It’s crazy because as much as I wanna die nothing will bring me to hurt my family so much. As much as I wanna die, fear has a tighter grip than the regrets I live with, strangling me. I’ll continue to crack jokes as if I have a personality. I’ll continue to laugh with you as if I’m not thinking about slicing my wrists. Suicide is hard but I can’t help but to think that living is just as hard.