My mother texted me...
and she told me that she doesn’t want me to work, she just wants me to continue my online business, she will just lend me money instead.
Now, I am thinking that I don’t know what to do with my life and my purpose now.
I am having an existential crisis. OMFG!
I want to travel and see the world.
I wanna have earn money so that I can have an adventurous life!
I wanna buy dazzling stuff... things I am I am currently obsessed on.
Simple happiness! I easily get bored I know. I fucking like to do lots of things but now it has lay low because I FINALLY know my hidden passion number or numerology and that is so true.
I wanna feed myself with ideas and create something different in this world.
I wanna travel and feed my brain with lots of discoveries, memories
I also wanna take lots of pictures and develop my skills in photography, cutting hair, making clothes, cooking, etc!
I feel like my mother is trying to control me or maybe she is trying to support me for being who I am... coz I always resign from work like after 1 year or 1 1/2 year.
The only company that I have been continuing to work is the homebased tutoring job. 2013- present
I want coffee now... and feel amazing!!!!
I want to share these thoughts to my partner but I THINK IT IS NOT A good time because tomorrow is his first day at work.... (again)
Anyway, I want a really hot coffee to burn these thoughts... and hopefully these thoughts are just fake that brain is just encouraging me to eat. Like a Stimulus.