#negative -'-

[peacockbutch]

avpd has ruined me

[peacockbutch]

im never going to be okay am i

[peacockbutch]

#negative #depression how much further down this road of apathy must I go for it to stop hurting. what walls can I build. what emotions can I kill. im so dead inside but its still not enough to make this bearable

[peacockbutch]

get me to tell you about what happened during the move to Van some time. really fun story, {sarcasm} like something out of a horror movie.

[peacockbutch]

#negative #swearing #drugs this situation is so fucked up like so genuinely horrifically fucked up but at least I know I'm never gonna do Meth haha

[peacockbutch]

I wish I had a better life I didn't deserve any of this

[peacockbutch]

#negative #swearing #parents #death I want to fucking leave I want to not care about them this situation will kill me but saving myself will kill them and I Wish I could fucking do that I wish I could hate them!!!! why can't I hate them