Who am I? Is Neptune really back?
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A lot of you already know me under the name of « Neptune » and you can still call me by that name as I really enjoyed it. However I am not the same « Neptune » I was months ago.
I left Tumblr and deleted my blog because of many things I may discuss with all of you if I want to answer them. But there are many things that changed to me.
First of all, during my Neptune era my intuition was overly stimulated which made me dream of anybody on Tumblr (anons, readers, users…). For instance, I met one person on Tumblr until I understand that I got introduced to her through my dreams. I met other people as well like Miaro (who actually knows a lot about my ability and how I work with it). I tell them everything I dream of and share what my interpretations are in order to have their point of view too. I also got to know Skymoonies (aka Luna) with whom I also talk to outside of Tumblr. A lot of things happened to me during my departure from Tumblr, I may or may not share some info, but if needed I hope my friends will be able to tell you what they think of my method.
My departure was due to some bad people/an evil person wanting to hurt me/betray me. That happened. Actually by two people. Most of you all know them either because they are on every tarot reader’s blog or also because they have a public blog. Those people accused me of being something I am not and were hypocrites. One of them even stalked me on my social medias to shame me once I deleted my blog.
Those people didn’t want to understand how my ability works because those are « just dreams » when even science actually puts more interest on dreams and recognizes the ability of the brain to create possible outcomes which are perceived as « premonitory dreams » as true/possible compared to other divinatory methods (that also are valuable depending on each person). Also, it’s still a topic studied in neuro-science so dreams aren’t that much of a stupid thing. Psychology even uses dreams to help patients. But anyway.
During my absence I asked and paid Miaro to do something important to me. They did, but it didn’t turn out the way I hoped it would. So during those months my dreams were getting out of control. When I shared some of them to another reader from Tumblr (on another social media) they told me that what I dreamt of was actually right (with some added or missed details) whether those dreams were about them directly or the celebrity. Miaro could share about their experience regarding my dreams.
I got really anxious, depressed and shameful about my ability because of those people who wanted to publicly shame me because « their intuition » or whatnot told them something was wrong about me. Little do one of them knows is that, for someone who listens to their « intuition » they still followed me after my first post about Jungkook. Guess it works one time out of two. (If she sees it she may either block me then talk about me or directly talk about me. She knows who she is).
I am no longer doing any post on any celebrity’s fs. I am no longer reading my tarot cards either. I also am not doing any post on whatever I am suggested to do. I do what I want based on what I receive.
To those who appreciated my blog/« work », thank you. To those who hated me, I’m fine. I am no longer caring about whether or not you believe me because I could show you any proves I still have on my galery, on the various discussions and other people’s testimonies I can share about. It doesn’t matter because even at the end of the day, my dreams are just my dreams, but they also are a part of me that help me during my most difficult times. Dreams are personal from person A to person Z. But regardless of the personal aspect of it, some people are not willing to accept some truths because it can be too much for them. I have to accept that… even if I showed you that I am honest, if you want to see me as a bad person ; believe it. Though your perception of me can impact me, it doesn’t define who I am.
I may have been clumsy and acted impulsively (which is my most dominant negative trait), but I always have been honest. I say things how they need to be said. I am just a random young woman using her ability to know/understand and predict certain things about her life and other people’s life, for something. I love writing so I may as well write what I dream but still being mindful of what I share.
But I hope you all know that I never ever wanted to force my opinion on you. I never wanted to force my narrative to be accepted as the only truth when I just gave my opinion. If I hurted you, I am truly sorry.
Doubting is one thing, accusing and shaming are another things. I may answer against accusations with proves, but only once. The rest is not my buisness.
I really am thankful for those that genuinely appreciated my energy/blog or whatsoever and I decided to make peace with my dreams. I decided to accept them as they are, to rely on them when it is helpful to me or interesting. I accept that they are a part of me and that they are sensitive to my emotional and mental state, that they use symbols that are personal to me. They are part of my spiritual journey but also my mental health journey. Tarot is no more to me.
Let’s see what the results of publicly sharing my dreams will be. Maybe they‘ll become more accurate… maybe less. Only time will tell. But when I’ll be done with it, this blog will only be an archive.
༺☆༻ And of course : don’t take everything seriously.
