I have tried many times to get on with my life in the pandemic and have failed. And although all restrictions are now lifted in the UK, we’re still in the pandemic, the virus isn’t gone, and it can continue to spread at any time.
Trying to navigate my own life with lifting restrictions, continues to be a work in progress. Mental health issues are difficult to work with. Two years in now and going for walks, makes for less anxious times thankfully.
I have managed to go to a retail park a couple of times, but I’m not there with restaurants, coffee shops, bars, theatres, or cinemas, or for me to be able to indulge in the odd manicure or pedicure, that was my old life.
It would be foolhardy to think the virus doesn’t exist or to think it’s done with us. Whilst I understand the country is done with the precautionary measures, we have to remember, the virus isn’t done with us.
People were so desperate to have a life, they didn’t care if they caught the virus, so long as they got their lives back and whilst I appreciate that, there are people like me who are vulnerable and high risk, and who have more to lose, if we were to catch it.
I appreciate life is very different for all of us now. But I am irked that I am high risk, vulnerable and forgotten about. It’s wrong. I belong to one of many groups, that simply put, have been forgotten and who are ‘four-walled’ because it’s easier for the UK government to legislate for the majority of people who don’t need assistance.
I’m in a drip, drip feed situation, and although it’s not ideal, it is giving me time to figure out what I need, without feeling pressured, or living with fear induced anxiety. This is different from what has been the norm for me, I need to be comfortable.
Two years in and I now feel I am up to finding ways that work for me. Today I am feeling confident enough to tackle the grocery store with a mask and or visor on, I need to think about timing, and when I go.
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