A lot of people won't say this and I may not feel like it later, but I am genuinely depressed getting older. I am struggling to find friends, struggling to find RP partners, and I don't feel good enough anywhere. I'm not good enough for games, queer enough, the list goes on.
The ADHD doesn't help, I can't remember things like normal people. I don't want to be treated like a child because of it. The other medical problems make a lot of other things not great either. I'm so tired and being up only in the late hours while most people are asleep because of my job there's just not much I can do.
(And yes I have looked on discord and multiple platforms. There's so much A.I. and I can't find anywhere/anyone who doesn't use it available when I'm available.)
I'm so tired.