people are probably wondering "why haven't you posted anything? where is the smut?"
well kids, because mother got fired from her job, has been aggressively masking her depression, is broke with bills to pay, is trying to check off an ever-growing list of adult responsibilities, and has not seen a therapist in three months, writing for joy is currently not happening.
sometimes i hit a phase where i can and will write purely because i love it. this is unfortunately not one of those times. i can’t even enjoy watching movies right now, not even as background noise, and that’s usually my last line of defense for inspiration.
the ao3 curse is real, it has me in a chokehold, and i apologize deeply to my readers. please know i am thinking about how disappointed everyone must be while sobbing alone every night because i can't talk to anyone about this.