because they’ve come from laughing with me,
or at me
either way i’m glad.
i’ve been spilling,
my liquid lines seeping peace
and hardship and poverty
i forget that you needed me to be rock for you
but all i am is liquid, pouring
but, now it’s all light
and i don’t ever wanna get used to this feeling
tell me i won’t
i remember sighs
no more sunken eyes, or jealous glances,
i don’t wanna ever get used to this.
we play all our stray hopes onto
this twisted relationship
i’m all in
our emptiness together made us feel whole again
however shallow it actually was
but i am still damaged goods and
you’ve been leaving me empty alone a lot recently
just some beautiful boy that the books don’t tell you about
i’ve been unprepared for the last three years
and i don’t think you’ll ever be predictable
which has it perks but we’re already high enough
bring me down
i’ve been so low you wouldn’t believe
and i see that that’s okay now
we both know i still have dark days
but all are made brighter by
you and your god awful laugh
your worn in crease lines
i don’t wanna ever get used to this