The Words Unsaid - @fangtastic_Pam
...But not having a way to properly express what he wanted, instead he wrote, “I regret I broke my promise, Pam.” My dearest Pam, There is no simple way to express all I would like to say, yet at the same time, there is no need. You have always felt and known the things I have left unsaid whether I have wanted such or not. It has been that way for longer than most could ever imagine, but still I find I must try now, because there is no way to know how this may conclude. Make no mistake of it, I do not do what I must tonight because it is what I want, or because I have some need to play a hero. I have no such desires in my silent heart, and never have. You know better than any, my sense of self-preservation is strong and one of my more valued traits. Tonight, my sense of self-preservation is telling me with every fiber of my being that I should not leave, despite the demands @BrodyKeyes has made. Yet I find this is not an option. When I became the Sheriff of Area Five, I agreed to protect this Area of the Kingdom of Louisiana with my undead life. I avowed to defend it and to keep order. This is my duty, and I will wear it with the pride the position requires of me. I would not trade it, not even now, when it may cost me my existence. I was made to lead, but such a position comes with a price. I know you are aware of that and that you have always been aware of that, but I still must remind you of it now, now that the cost may seem greater than the reward. This was my choice, and I had made it long before the witch had ever haunted my territory. My responsibilities and obligations are but one reason I leave the safety of @VampyJo's walls, however. The most important reason is because this witch holds your life in his hands, along with the lives of others I find I care for in spite of myself, but mostly, that he holds yours. I would pay any price demanded of me to protect you and keep you safe. If I am destroyed, yet you are able to exist for centuries upon centuries, my eternal rest, damnation, or nothingness-- whatever it might be that follows this existence-- will be readily accepted, and not in vain. You are my greatest creation and you must never forget it. I knew from the first night I saw you, alone after dark, so many years ago, that I had found something and someone important to me. I could never imagine how true that would become. At the time, I believed it was your simplicity that made you so intriguing. A young human, driven by emotion I had so long forgotten, disregarding the rules to her own detriment... When I the time to reflect, I realize now how wrong I was. I was and have always been the simple one. You are far more complex. And you were so necessary. I needed you like I have needed few things throughout my long existence. I was a vampire who had lost his way, with the monotony of eternity threatening nightly to drive me to madness. It was you who saved me. You brought me a companionship I hadn't been aware I needed until I had it. You reminded me of feelings, emotions, and things I could never describe in words, that I had long believed were dead within me. You gave me life when I was unaware I even required one. Never forget these things. Carry them with you each and every night. They may not be proof of the extraordinary vampire you are, but they are proof of the extraordinary woman you are, and that may be more important, especially now, when we are being so targeted for the nature of our race. You will not struggle with that, however. You are an extraordinary vampire and I know you do not require me to say such in order to know it is true. You are of the bloodline of history's greatest warriors, and that is not an error. You belong in such a line. Whether I may be ended tonight or not, I know you will do it proud for the duration of your eternity. Of that I have no doubt. You will need to be a warrior now. You will need to summon within you all the strength that runs in our veins, because you cannot let this witch destroy you. You are my legacy, and I could not be more proud of it. The people of Area Five, my Area, my people, need you now. As your Maker, I ask you not to crumble, despite the battle that may be. I ask you to look after what I hold dear. I ask you to look after your brothers in blood, @BrierFerrior_ and even the perpetual embarrassment that is @VaughnBrennan. I know under your guidance, they will achieve something great, but they are still young and vulnerable in this existence. If I am gone, they will need you now to survive, and their survival, like your own, is the way I will carry on into the ages. Protect it. We only have one another. I ask you to look after @LaceyTB as well. She may not be mine, nor your sister in blood, but I made no secret of my desire to be the one to turn her. Treat her as if she were. She suffers now with @JackDanielsTB in this damned limbo we have all come to know too well. I ask you to help her, and that you allow her to help you. I ask you to keep @AbigaleDawson safe. For a human, Abigale is impressively resilient and able to maintain composure in bleak situations, but she is still very much so a human. She would protest protection, but her and her child require it. Her gift is valuable and rare, but that is not why she should be kept safe now. Abigale is compassionate to our kind, to the Supernatural in general, a friend to us all when we so often deserve none. She is special. It is that that the witch and so many like him seek to snuff out, and we cannot allow for that to happen. I ask you to be a guide to JoAnna. She is still new to this existence, with both a newborn of her own and a large, living family, but she will be a great vampire for centuries to come if this witch is stopped from destroying everything held dear. She doesn't require supervision or unnecessary interference, such would be an insult to the strength and capability she already shows, but she will have questions and need guidance as she continues her way through eternity, and @RomanLucious will have his hands quite full. I ask you to look after @WaylonLee_ and to let him look after you, and not solely because of my fondness for the concept of WAAM. My bear is sentimental, compassionate, and protective to a degree that has always entertained me, but now, such a thing could not be more valuable. Never would I doubt your strength, but never forget you must not possess strength at all times... Though you have always been far better at remembering that than I have. These are not the commands of a Maker, but merely what I ask... What I hope you might do for me. I have made the Deputy avow that, if things go poorly tonight, he will get himself to safety before we can both be lost. Should I meet my end tonight, I leave Area Five and the responsibilities of it in his hands, and I have no doubt he will do for it what is required of him. Help him as he needs it, but do not jeopardize yourself more than you must. My political ambitions were never your own, and, if they have now cost me everything, I hope you never make the more costly choices I have made for yourself. Do not challenge the Deputy for authority. I would not want that, not now, not ever. We have more than enough enemies. When all of this is said and done, when your existence is secured and the witch is destroyed, I hope you forge your own road, and do only what will bring you happiness. I hope you never repeat my mistakes. I hope, in time, you will become a Maker, and carry on the same legacy I have bestowed upon you. I hope there is never a night you will not walk this earth. I hope that walk is never burdened because of me. But above all things, I hope you know the place you have always held and will always hold in my silent heart. My love for you is deep and important and immeasurable. You have been many things to me since the night I found you and you joined me in this existence. You were always destined for it-- a complete natural-- and I am merely the one of infinite fortunate who discovered you first. Merely calling you my child, my progeny, is not enough and it could never describe all that you have truly been to me. You made me feel again, and it is the greatest gift I have ever been given. Whatever fate I walk towards tonight, I do it with these things in my mind, and these things in my heart. You must not follow me, you must not come to me, no matter how much you may want to. I will not risk you in such a way. Yet still, know that I regret I broke my promise, Pam.
