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okay @ my lovely mystery anon ✨, heres that nonbinary steve you requested forever ago (and nonbinary billy bc i found that pose and my brain would not Shut Up)
For Steve
Commission for @cherrydreamer, thank you so much for your commission and your idea! 💕
Read on ao3
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“Oh damn .”
Steve smiled bashfully, looking down at his feet, wrapped up in silk.
He had gotten a new set today, pretty lace panties matched the garter belt perfectly , stockings clipped in and held high on his thighs.
The bralette was see-through, but the lace on the trim matched everything else.
“Gimme a spin.” He turned around for Billy, throwing him a sultry look over his shoulder.
The panties were cut high on his ass cheeks, and he knew the straps of the garters framed his ass just right . He had checked in the mirror.
Billy was just about salivating as Steve turned back around, walking slow and sexy back to him.
“Jesus, Baby. I’ll never get tired of you dressin’ up all pretty for me.”
Billy grabbed him around the waist, tossing him onto the bed, pressing his body over Steve’s.
And Steve loved sharing this with Billy, loved that Billy got such satisfaction from his outfits , his makeup , but something didn’t sit right with Steve.
Maybe it was the dressin’ up all pretty for me .
It wasn’t for Billy.
It was for Steve.
NB! Steve being a dancer
Those who appear in song videos or who are at concerts
And Billy working in something like that
Maybe being a dancer himself or something
But they met because of that
(hello I can't put my thoughts into words help)
Nb model Steve? Maybe Billy is a photographer who's known for his artsy and alternative photos and Steve is an up and coming model who has to deal with a lot of misgendering in the industry? But Billy is one of the first photographers who really respects their pronouns and what he's comfortable wearing
Read on Ao3
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Steve didn’t know what to expect when they got on location.
They loved being a model, felt so comfortable in front of a camera, had even gotten to do some runway work for New York Fashion Week this year.
But the issue, is that they only get work as a male model, where they’re expected to be hyper masculine and all macho.
It’s the fucking worst.
But their agent had gotten them this shoot, promised that it wouldn’t be like the last one, or the one before that, or the one before that.
They took a deep breath before entering the building.
“Hi, Steve Harrington, checking in.” The woman smiled at them, tapping on her phone.
“Great, let’s take you through to hair and makeup. Mr. Hargrove will want to speak with you before you begin.” She led Steve through to the warehouse.
Steve had never worked with Billy Hargrove before, but his name preceded him. He was known for beautiful shoots with models way beyond Steve’s recognition and caliber. Shooting campaigns for high end designers.
“So, I was never informed what campaign this is for.”
“This is for Mr. Hargrove’s personal portfolio. He chooses to freelance various projects he believes in.”
“Wait so, this is like, just for him?” She pulled Steve aside.
“He’s putting together an art book, but do not tell anyone you heard that. He’s going to announce it in a few months. Limited run, all that. You’ll be getting a share. He feels paying models is extremely important.” Steve just nodded, they’re eyes big.
“Sorry, how did I end up on this project?”
“Oh, Mr. Hargrove is a fan of your work. Asked for you by name.”
Steve was in hair and make up now, being ushered into a tall chair. The woman, probably Mr. Hargrove’s assistant, took off again.
Steve closed their eyes, figured they would be getting a light foundation, maybe some contour to sharpen their jaw, that kinda thing.
They zoned out, just let the makeup artists do their work.
“Steve Harrington. Good to meet you.” Steve opened their eyes, was met with The Billy Hargrove.
“Mr. Hargrove, it’s an honor to meet you. I’ve a very big fan of your work, especially on the most recent Dior campaign, those images were beautiful.”
“Oh, call me Billy. And I loved your work with Jonathan Byers. I think that was about three years ago, now? I’ve been trying to make arrangements to work with you since those were published.”
Steve furrowed their brows. Those pictures featured Steve in a lot of makeup, and lingerie in most of them. Billy was studying their face.
“Have you done their hair yet?” Steve’s eyes were wide.
That was the first time they hadn’t been misgendered on a job.
“No, Mr. Hargrove.”
“If you can make it look like they just have it now, I like the kinda of, wild thing that’s happening. And maybe make the gold a little bolder. I really like the look.”
Steve hadn’t washed their hair in a few days, usually the hair artists would wash it before they began anyway.
Billy smiled at them one last time before leaving again, and Steve got a look at themself in the mirror.
Their eye makeup was a pretty ballet pink, gold glitter packed onto their eyelids. Their face was contoured to look feminine, the way the did their own makeup.
When they finished with hair and makeup, they met Billy in wardrobe.
He was flicking through a rack of clothes.
“Hey! You look great.” Steve flushed.
“So, what are you comfortable in? I’m looking to explore humanity in all forms. I’m working with artists that inspire me through their realities. You’re pretty much the top of that list.”
“Wait, I’m not following.”
“Your gender identity and expression, the way you wear your body in the most authentic way possible. I’ve seen your work. Those images with Byers are so beautiful, so much moreso than anything else I’ve seen of yours. Your confidence exuded through the image more than anything I’ve ever seen. It was inspiring.”
“So, you’re gonna let me do this my way?”
“Of course. I’m showcasing you, whatever that means.” Steve nodded at him once.
They began rifling through the clothes, making a pile of things they liked, what they thought would look good with the makeup.
“And I’m pretty much comfortable with anything.” Billy raised one eyebrow.
“Nudity?”
“If you want.”
“Could that cause you any dysphoria, though?” Steve blinked at him.
“Jesus, that’s the first time I’ve ever been asked that on a shoot.” Billy’s smile slipped.
“Seriously?” Steve shrugged. “Not even with Byers?”
“Well, I mean, that doesn’t count. We’ve known each other since we were kids, and I was just getting into modelling, and him into photography, so that was kind of to build up both of our portfolios at the time. I did my own hair, makeup and costuming.” Billy raised one eyebrow.
“But apart from working with a close friend, you’ve never been asked about dysphoria.” Billy said it as a statement, like he was trying to wrap his head around the idea.
“And it’s funny, because I usually get dysphoric in menswear shoots, but most people hire me as a male model.”
“Jesus, I’m sorry, Steve.” They shrugged.
“It is what it is. Not a lot of gender noncomforming or just straight up not cis models in the mainstream. There’s a few, don’t get me wrong, but not many, and very few household names. I just figured I need to be versatile for now, and eventually, I’ll have enough of career I can start making demands. Taking up space.”
“Still, it sucks that you gotta pick and choose like that. You should be able to just, do what you want.”
“That’s easy to say, mister photographer.” Billy smiled bashfully. “Look, thank you for taking time to research me and know what I’m all about. This experience has already been a lot better than most of my other shoots.” Billy clapped them on the shoulder.
“Hey, you’re my muse. I’m just excited to be working with you. I’ll leave you to get changed, we’ve got some wardrobe assistants standing by if you need help.” He swept out of the curtained off area.
Steve decided to begin with a light blue slip dress, matching silk panties.
They had help getting into the gold chunky heels, and made a bit of a show of walking those few feet to set.
Billy was staring darkly.
“You look beautiful.” Steve grinned at him, taking a seat on the white settee.
Billy was very easy to work with.
He let Steve take some liberties, try a few things out, and would direct from there, telling Steve how to adjust their body.
Steve felt in control, felt beautiful and confident.
Steve had taken off the slip, was posing in just the blue panties, now sitting on a windowsill, the New York skyline behind them.
Steve stood up, and dropped the little panties, kicking them away. Billy nodded, still looking behind the camera.
“Beautiful, Steve.”
They stood in nothing but the heels, had been given a piece of fabric to drape around their body, or not if they so pleased. Steve held it aloft, looking at the camera with their best bitchy I’m above you look.
Billy had them do the same with six other outfits, slowly strip out of them throughout the shoot.
The set was closed, only a handful of people in the room with them as Steve languished around.
Billy nearly lost his damn mind at an image of Steve, their back to the camera, in nothing but red pumps, sitting in a middle split on the windowsill.
“You’re a fucking genius, Stevie. Gorgeous!”
It was hours before the shoot had finished, and Steve was given a plush robe and a latte.
“Steve.” Billy jerked his head towards the table in the corner, Billy’s cameras and laptop sitting on top of it.
Billy pulled another chair up to the table, let Steve sit on the first one.
“I just want to go over the shoot with you. You can pick the shots you like the most, and we can see which ones are right for my project. I’m publishing an art book. I’m sure Miranda already told you, she tells fucking everyone.” He had loaded the images from the day onto the laptop.
They clicked through them, sitting just the two of them, everyone already having left for home.
“Oh, wow.” Billy had stopped on an image of Steve with the large piece of gauzy fabric. It was draped over their shoulder, put hung to the floor, doing nothing to cover their body. “Look at your face. This is what I was taking about. The confidence, you just exude don’t fuck with me energy. It’s beautiful.”
Billy would often do that, point out minute details in Steve’s body language or facial expressions and explain the ways they were captivating.
And it made Steve feel captivating.
“You’re really beautiful, you know that?” Steve was far too aware of how close Billy’s face was to theirs.
“I really felt it today. Thank you.”
“You are ethereal. I’m not kidding.” Billy’s eyes flicked down to their lips. “Can I kiss you?”
“Please.”
Steve sighed when Billy kissed them, just a light press of his lips to theirs.
“I’d like to see you again. Cook you dinner? Or take you out? You pick.” Steve sat back.
“Like a date?”
“Yes.”
“You wanna date me?”
“Yes.”
“Is that why you wanted to work with me?”
“I wanted to work with you because you are so beautiful it’s inspiring. I want to date you because on top of all that, you’re kind, and sweet, and driven.”
“Um, yeah, then. I’ll go on a date with you.” Billy beamed. “But I don’t put out on the first date, and just because you photographed me naked does not mean you get to fuck me anytime soon.”
“Oh, of course.” He looked serious. It made Steve melt a little.
“And I’d love it if you cooked for me.”
“Then my place. Friday. Seven o’clock. Wear something nice. I may not be able to resist photographing you.”
“Yeah, yeah, Sweet Talker. I’m allergic to bell peppers and I think mushrooms are gross, so steer clear.”
“Drat. There goes my idea for mushroom stuffed bell peppers.”
“Darn. Looks like we can’t go out, then.” Billy laughed.
“I’ll text you my address. And my house will be properly de-mushroom and bell peppered for you.” Steve smiled.
“I appreciate it.”
So, I had this idea, but I'm not really good with writing Harringrove, so I thought I could share it with u. A modern au where Steve nd Billy are streamers in L.A. Like, maybe Billys a gaming streamer nd Steve is a v chill streamer nd basically half of their live streams consist of Steve sitting in Billys lap nd the two of them cuddling while just talking nd one day they get a donation question like, "Are the two of u dating wtf" nd they just go "duh" also. femme/nonbinary steve
I love the idea of Steve being jenna marbles-esque, just like sweet and kinda weird and super loved.
And y’all know my love for nb Steve.
Based loosely on this post. Mainly just the gif.
Watch me make up twitter handles lol
This is v soft and includes many of my headcanons for these two living their lovely modern lives.
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“Bill!”
Steve was yowling like a damn cat out in the kitchen, interrupting Billy’s stream. “Billy!”
“Stevie! I’m streamin’, Baby!” Hear could hear Steve’s feet plodding down the hall. The chat started going crazy as they appeared in the stream behind Billy, wearing a too-big sweater, thick wool socks on those perpetually cold little feet. Their hair was a fucking mess, and they were wearing their glasses, the big ones Billy loved.
They climbed on Billy’s lap, settling their face into his neck.
“What’s up?”
“Just wanted some lovin’.” Steve’s voice was soft, but they always put their face on the side Billy’s headset mic was on and the audience would go wild over the quiet things they said. Billy rubbed their back before going back to his game.
“Everyone welcome Stevie to the stream.”
He kept playing as usual, Steve a warm little puddle in his lap.
“Okay, Babes. I’m signing off for today, Steve is definitely asleep on me right now and I gotta put them to bed. Love you all, stay safe.” He had to awkwardly shuffle Steve around in his lap to turn off the stream, picking them up to take them to the room across the hall.
They had gotten a two bedroom when they were still friends, pretending they weren’t fucking in love with each other. They had moved into the bedroom formerly known as Steve’s, setting up Billy’s old room for streaming and video editing.
Steve snuffled as Billy took off their glasses, sliding into bed behind them.
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Steve was sitting on the floor, laughing at the monitor.
They had been doing a series of Quarantine Madness videos, doing crafts and silly makeup tutorials.
They were currently trying temporary hairdye, had their hair sticking up in all directions.
“This is so fucking stupid, oh my god.” They had electric pink in their hair, Billy had gotten roped into it with dark blue.
“If you destroy my hair for YouTube hits, I’m gonna cry.” Steve had their thin fingers in his hair, rubbing the dye in.
“Oh, worse comes to worse you get ridda that fucking mullet.”
“You love this mullet. It’s my trademark.” Billy’s hair wasn’t supposed to be a mullet, was originally a shag that had grown in weird, but Billy had become known for it, and he had kinda grown to like it.
“The whole premise of this video is to get you to shave your head.” Billy laughed. “Okay, so we gotta wait like twenty minutes and then we gotta wash it out.” They looked at memes while they waited, figured Steve would edit all this waiting out of the video anyway.
They washed the dye out in the sink, scrubbing at one another’s heads before getting in the shower to clean off the patches on their skin.
They ended up getting a little distracted in the shower.
Steve had blow dried both their hair to see the color. The pink was subtle in Steve’s dark hair, the highlights they had gotten a few weeks before quarantine picking up more of the color.
Billy’s hair was bright fucking blue, and neither of them could stop laughing at it.
“I kinda, kinda love it on you, Bill.” Steve was brushing their fingers through Billy’s hair, making him lean into the touch like a damn cat.
The video ended up being wildly popular.
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“So, you all tweeted us some questions, and we’re gonna answer them over live stream. We each picked a bunch to pose to one another, so yeah.” Steve shrugged. “Billy, @.DustinHendy wants to know why you’re such a little bitch.” Billy cackled, planting his face into Steve’s shoulder.
“Tell Dustin he’s a little garbage human.” Billy winked at the camera, making the comments along the side of the screen go crazy. “Um, I thought this question was interesting, @.llittlebug says: you two are so touchy. Are you together, or are you just close friends? We’re gal pals, actually.” Steve laughed, loud and bright.
“Two bros chillin’ in the hot tub, five feet apart ‘cause we’re not gay.” Steve sang, making them both crack up.
“Yeah, we’re very much in a relationship, have been for four years now.” Steve was giving him that soft smile Billy loved so much. He leaned in, pressing a soft kiss to that sweet little mouth. The chat was going insane, people sending comments along the lines of I knew it! and so happy for you both!
Steve’s cheeks were flushed.
“So, uh @.bigyikes asks, how did you two meet? Well actually, we went to high school together, and fucking hated each other when we first met, got in a big fight, worked our shit out became friends, moved in together, and fell in love like big dumb losers.”
“So bold of you to claim I ever hated you. I literally was fucking in love with them from the first time I ever saw them but I was, uh, going through a lot, and was kind of the worst back then.” Steve’s arm was on his shoulder, playing with the long hair by his neck.
“You’ve gotten so much better. And I’m proud of you.” Billy planted a kiss to their forehead.
“Next question before I fucking cry, @.imaloser wants to know our sexualities and gender expressions. I mean, you’ve been plenty open about all that.”
“Well, yeah. I’m pansexual and agender, which is under the nonbinary umbrella, but I like to typically present femme. And I use they pronouns, most of you know that, of course. I’m pretty open.” They turned big eyes on Billy.
“These days, I just identify as queer. I’ve always identified as a gay man, but I haven’t dated a guy in a long fuckin’ time.” Steve curled into his side.
“It’s been a learning process for both of us. I mean Billy’s the first person I dated seriously after I came out, and there was just a part of me that felt lowkey misgendered every time he said he was gay.”
“Oh, there was a lot of learning in those early days for sure. And I think we’re both still doing that. I hope I am.” Steve poked his stomach.
“You’re good to me, Bill.” There was a slew of sweet comments in the live stream.
“@.folks asks when did you get into makeup?” He turned to Steve.
“Growing up, most of my friends were girls, and I just always loved playing dress up, and getting make overs. When I was like, fourteen I think, I started playing with makeup myself, learning from YouTube tutorials, and just like, messing around with stuff. I always loved just feeling really pretty, so that’s why-” they gestured at themself, one of Billy’s shirts tucked into old worn out jeans, soft white cardigan. They had put on a full face of makeup for the stream.
“I think you’re the prettiest.” Steve laughed, headbutting Billy’s shoulder.
“Okay, so @.imstruggling wants to know who’s a better cook.” Steve turned dramatically to the camera. “Me, bitch!”
Is it bad that Woman by Harry Styles gives me BIG nb Steve vibes...? Because it has been KILLING me lately 😅 could you write a little harringrove something with it? I would love you forever lol
So, um, not sure what this is, but I listened to the song and thought it was pretty sexy, so, uh, stripper au.
Ao3
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Billy didn’t mind Steve’s line of work.
They were dancing long before they met Billy, and they loved the club, felt so powerful and beautiful when they were stripping.
Plus, it was good money.
They would come home with piles of tip money, and be so giddy they’d give Billy a free lap dance before bed.
And Billy loved coming to Steve’s club, would get a table right near the stage, empty a few thousand dollars out of their joint bank account just so he could have something to toss at Steve.
They would smirk at Billy, working the pole while giving him sultry looks, then drop to the floor of the stage, crawling over to Billy, and making a real show of shaking their ass in his face, letting him shove dollar bills that will just go right back into their joint account the next bank day.
Billy had posted up at his preferred table, ordered a few drinks from the scantily clad waiter.
He was staring at his phone, scrolling aimlessly through Instagram while he waited for Steve.
The lights dimmed, making Billy perk up.
“Alright, everyone! Give a warm welcome to Bambi!”
And there was Steve, in platform Pleaser heels and lingerie.
The song began, Steve had a rotation of several they liked.
Billy had seen them all. But he loved this one.
I'm selfish, I know. But I don't ever want to see you with him.
They started rolling their body to the slow beat, making dark eyes at Billy, his stack of crisp bills.
I'm selfish, I know. I told you, but I know you never listen.
Billy sipped his drink as Steve began walking forward, grinding against the pole, lifting themself up on it to do a few artful spins.
I hope you can see the shape that I'm in. While he's touching your skin.
They slid down the pole, landing in a split, tossing their head back.
He's right where I should, where I should be. But you're making me bleed.
Billy raised a few bills, made Steve grin.
They crawled over to him as the chorus began. They smiled coyly at him, coming up on their knees, pushing their hips forward, let Billy tuck a few dollar bills into the waistband of their panties.
They sank back down.
“Hi, Baby.”
“Havin’ a good night, Sugar?” Steve licked their lips slowly, seductively.
“Better now that you’re here.”
“Yeah? How ‘bout a private dance then?”
“Well, you can pay fifty bucks for one after this, or, you can wait till I get home and I’ll give you an extra special dance.” They had leaned back down on their knees, putting their ass up in the air, circling their hips, keeping the other patrons intrigued.
“Maybe I’ll wait, then. Get one ‘a those special dances.” Steve grinned, lounging out onto their back, opening their long legs in a middle split.
Billy tucked a dollar bill into the top of their boot, just to make them laugh.
They crawled away, dancing for a few of the other patrons, accepting dollar bills with a gracious smile.
They stood back up, rolling their body some more, feeling over their body.
Tempted, you know. Apologies are never gonna fix this.
Sometimes the people Billy worked with at the garage, asked him how he was okay with Steve being a stripper.
He’d always say that first of all, watching Steve dance was sexy as hell. Second of all, what Steve chose to do with their life, their career, was none of Billy’s business.
But he wasn’t always that way.
He used to get jealous, watching other guys look at Steve like that, like they want them. He would be filled with white hot rage when he thought about Steve giving private dances, grinding on strange guys’ laps.
And in the early days, he and Steve had fought about it, had yelled at one another and Billy had said it feels like you’re cheating on me! How do I know you’re not fucking these guys! and Steve had said I’m not quitting a job that I love for anyone! Learn to trust me, or get the fuck out of my life! and so Billy had pulled his head out of his ass.
I'm empty, I know. Promises are broken like the stitches.
He knew it was an act, the way Steve would flutter their eyes all sexy at the men in the club, knew it was real by the way they would laugh and cry and smile and be weird and flutter their eyes all sexy at Billy.
Billy got the full range of Steve, and these assholes at the club only got Steve bleeding their tip money.
I hope you can see the shape I've been in. While he's touching your skin.
Billy watched some patron trail a wad of cash down Steve’s body, shoving them into his panties.
He thought about what he was gonna buy Steve with the money pressed against their dick, the money that come Monday morning would be in the account they both had cards for.
Maybe he’d get them a nice ring.
Maybe he’d get them a promise with that ring.
This thing upon me, howls like a beast. You flower, you feast.
hey i’m sorry to bother you but could you write some fluffy non-binary Steve? I’m bigender and i’m not really out to anyone and one of my friends made a joke about bigender people and it really just crushed me a little bit, so if it’s not too much to ask could you please write something small and fluffy for me? Sorry to bother you!
You’re not bothering me! I love writing requests and stuff for y’all. And you are super fucking valid, just btw.
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Steve poked Billy’s stomach.
Billy tried not to move his face, tried not to smile.
Steve poked him again.
“Bill, I know you’re awake.”
He didn’t move.
Steve huffed.
Billy felt their warmth disappear from his side.
And then all the wind was knocked out of him as Steve flopped right on top of him, just let their full body weight slam onto him.
Billy opened his eyes, glared at them. They smiled so sweet at him.
“Hi.”
“Hi, Baby. Thanks for such a sweet wake up.”
“You’re welcome.” Billy wrapped his arms around them, closing his eyes again. Steve slapped his chest. “No! Don’t fall asleep! You promised you’d take me to the beach today.”
They had arrived late last night to San Diego, just checked into their hotel and curled up together.
“The beach’ll be there for another hour or two.” Steve began flopping on top of him violently.
“Wanna go to the beach.”
“Oh my God. Fine! We’ll go!” Steve was off him in a flash, rushing off to the bathroom.
Billy took a deep breath, rolling his eyes as Steve started their happyhappyhappy playlist, super fucking loud.
Billy rolled dramatically out of bed, plastered himself to Steve’s back as they brushed their teeth. He took the toothbrush out of their hand to brush his own teeth with it.
“That’s foul, Bill.”
“Forgot mine.” Steve rolled their eyes.
They scampered about, packing a bag for the beach. They tossed Billy’s SPF 15 sunscreen in with their own SPF 50.
They got dressed fast, started trailing close behind Billy, just chanting beach beach beach beach.
Billy led them out of the hotel, Steve tucked under his arm.
Their hotel was a short walk from the beach, and they stopped on the way to get iced lattes. Steve took a lot of pictures of the two of them.
“Okay, Sweet Thing. Hop on my back, and close your eyes.” Steve raised an eyebrow at him. “C’mon. Trust me.” They sighed dramatically, but got on his back all the same.
Billy piggybacked them all the way to the edge of the water.
“Open your eyes.”
Billy heard them gasp.
“Oh wow.”
Steve had never seen the ocean before.
Billy had tossed their bag on the sand a ways back, so he kept walking into the water, stopping when the waves were batting at his chest.
“You ready?”
“For wha-” Steve shrieked as Billy dunked them both in the water, holding Steve’s legs tight to his waist. He came back up, Steve spluttering and coughing. He shifted them around until he was holding under their ass, face to face.
“Coulda warned me.”
“Nah. Wanted your first time in the ocean to be a surprise. Now you’ll never forget it.”
“Yeah, ‘cause I almost fucking died.” Billy kissed their cheek, loved tasting the ocean on their skin.
Nb Steve as requested by @takemebythehand-andsetmefree
Happy Pride!
Here is a link to my post about Harringrove for BLM, and here is a link to Writers/Artists Against Police Brutality
Here’s also a link to the Masterlist of Harringrove for BLM coutesy of @harringrovetrashh
Thank you all for organizing, participating, and donating.
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There is an instance where Steve gets misgendered, not by malicious intent, but it still happens, so take care of yourselves, don’t read if that could harm you.
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“I think I’m a girl.”
This revelation wasn’t totally shocking to Billy.
Steve loved pretty things. Could be found more often than not jamming around in a little skirt, lots of makeup. So Billy just said
“Okay, Baby. Then I love my gorgeous girlfriend.”
And that was so sweet and all, but to Steve it still didn’t, it felt just as bad as boyfriend.
“Actually, maybe not.”
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“I think maybe there’s something wrong with me.”
They were in Steve’s bed together, Steve laying practically on top of Billy.
“What makes you say that?”
“Parts of me feel like I’m a girl, and parts of me feel like I’m a boy. But all of me hates both of those options. I mean, I love looking like a girl, but when you, when you said girlfriend, Bill that felt just as fucking bad as boyfriend. I think I’m broken.” Billy shifted around until Steve was looking right at him.
“You are not broken. You are beautiful and amazing and confused. But you are far from broken. There’s more in the world than girl and boy. You can be anything, anyone.
“Back in California, I knew all kinds of people. I had friends all along the trans umbrella. I had a friend who was a trans guy, but preferred presenting for feminine. I had androgynous friends that presented however they pleased. I had friends who identified as no gender, or all the genders. I had a friend whose gender identity would change on any given day. Gender is fucking fake, and if you’re not comfortable with whatever you were assigned at birth, make something new for yourself.”
“I think that I’m somewhere in between. Not a woman, but not a man.” Billy grabbed the notbad next to Steve’s bad, drew a horizontal line across it.
“So basically, think of gender as a spectrum. Over here you’ve got women. This includes trans women, who are women that were assigned male at birth. One the other side you’ve got men, which includes trans men. In the middle, you’ve got nonbinay folks. Nonbinary is an umbrella term that just means these people live outside of man and woman. This includes agender people, who have no gender, and people who identify as more than one gender, like bigender or pangender. All along the scale you have people who are genderfluid and genderflux, whose definition of their own gender may slide along the scale at any given moment. You also have people that identify as demiboy, or reversely, demigirl, people that only identify partially as boy or girl, respectively. There’s also the idea of being transmasc, or transfem which are people who were assinged a gender at birth, but identitfy more with the other, without completely identify themselves as trans. So a person assigned male at birth who doesn’t consider themselves a transwoman, but more comfortably identities with feminity as a concept.”
He held out the drawing to Steve.
“There’s also different pronouns, and this isn’t even touching the intersex scale. Gender is so fucking whack, Sweet Thing.
“There’s a lot of different ways to play with it, and each person is so different. You can identify one way and present in a way that isn’t stereotypical to how you identify. And no one can tell you you’re wrong. Because you’re not.”
Steve was studying the drawing with wide eyes.
“Pronouns?”
“Like how I was assigned male at birth, and identify as male, so I use he/him pronouns. People along this scale can use whatever pronouns feel best. Some people use they and them so that they aren’t being gendered, and there are other gender neutral pronouns, like ze/zir and ve/ver.”
“But I mean, they is like, it’s plural.”
“Nah. They has always been used as a gender neutral pronoun. Plus, if it feels best, it can mean whatever the fuck you want it to.”
“So I could, I could like, be a them.”
“If that feels good.”
“Use it for me. Let me see.”
“Okay, um, I was laying in bed with my significant other, Steve and they were asking me questions about gender identity and expression. Afterwards I made them a cup of tea and cuddled them all night.” Steve’s eyes opened back up.
“Bill, that’s, fuck, that’s it.”
“They?”
“They. That felt, it felt good. I didn’t, I don’t even know.” Billy squished them tighter to himself.
“I’m glad, Baby.”
“So, does that make me nonbinary?” Billy just looked at them.
“Does it? You tell me, Sweet Thing.”
“I think so. Nonbinary. So like, maybe transfem? But I think I would be more agender”
“If that’s what’s true. You can call yourself nonbinary and leave it at that, or you can take as many labels as you feel fit. It’s your identity. Fuck with it as you see fit.”
Steve was worrying their lip.
“And you don’t mind?”
“Mind what?”
“That I’m not, not a guy.” Billy pressed a kiss to their forehead.
“‘Course I don’t min. You’re still you. You’re gender doesn’t matter to me at all. As long as you’re happy and comfortable and safe. That’s what matters to me.”
-
Steve needed to tell the party.
They spent so much time with the gaggle of kids, and kept getting fucking misgendered. Not that it was their fault, they didn’t know Steve was using different pronouns now.
“Look, I know those little Gen-Z’ers aren’t gonna care. I mean they see me in makeup and dresses and shit all the time, but this feels, big.” Billy was driving them over to the Byers’ place where all the kids were waiting. “But, but what if they take it wrong. What if they just think I’m this confused girl or something. Or they say I need to make up my mind.” Billy reached over to grab their hand.
“If they do, I’ll punch ‘em out. One by one. Fuck them kids.”
But they all took it so fucking well, it was actually anticlimactic.
“I mean, it’s pretty obvious you don’t conform to a gender binary.” Dustin hadn’t even looked up from their campaign as Steve fucking came out. “But like, thanks for telling us. And trusting us. You’re pretty brave I guess.”
Steve rolled their eyes.
“Thanks. You’re all so sweet and sensitive. I was shitting myself on the way over, and none of you are even fazed.”
“Yeah, I saw this coming.” Lucas rolled one of his dice.
“Do you want to do it again? We’ll all pretend to think you’re disgusting and call you a freak or something. Would that be better?” Mike had a challenging look on his face. Steve just slumped into the couch.
“No. Whatever. It’s fine.” They were actually pouting.
“What, you wanted like, a Lifetime movie moment? Where we all cry and say that we love you regardless and pretend we literally all didn’t see this coming?” Mike rolled his eyes.
“I mean, a little pomp and circumstance would be nice. Accepting myself and coming out to you all was a bunch of breakdowns in the making.” Dustin threw himself dramatically onto Steve’s lap.
“Oh! Oh, Steven! My sweet dear loved one! This is shocking news! But my love for you will never crumble! If anything, it is fortified!” Steve just laughed and shoved Dustin off their lap.
“Brat.”
-
“Can I just get a cheeseburger and fries?” The peppy waitress was twirling her ponytail, batting her eyes at Billy like Steve wasn’t right fucking there.
“Of course. Anything else for you?” She pat her eyes. Billy just blinked at her, completely dead-eyed. He gestured to Steve.
“Sorry, Girl. Didn’t see you!” She tried to laugh it off. Steve’s blood went cold.
“I’ll get the same please.” Her eyes widened at the sound of Steve’s voice, still deep, still masculine, despite the light blue dress, the pretty makeup.
“Oh, sorry. I’ll get that right out for you boys.” She shot away, embarrassed. Steve let their head fall onto the table.
Billy ran his fingers through their hair.
“Two for the price of one misgenderings.” They muttered into the table. Billy was gently scraping his nails into their scalp. “That was like getting kicked while down Jesus.”
“I’m sorry you have to deal with that. I’m sorry I can’t totally understand how shitty it makes you feel.” They sat in silence for a moment until Billy tugged on their hair as the waitress approached with their food. She set it down cautiously.
“Could we get some ketchup, please. And they’re gonna want mustard.” Steve smiled weakly at him, they way he overemphasized using they.
“Um, of course. Anything else?”
“Could you grab them another water?” It was just less than half-full, but Billy couldn’t be stopped.
The waitress just blushed, filling Steve’s water and placing ketchup and mustard on their table with a little enjoy.
“Bill, she didn’t mean to.”
“Yeah, but she still did. And I wanted you to stop feeling invalidated.” Billy shoved the burger in his mouth.
Steve just smiled at him, told him he ate like a pig.
