#notmmd

[wackos-of-the-mmdc]

Hey guys. I know it’s been a while, but I wanted to share my grief concerning the death of wowaka.

If you didn’t know, on April 5th, 2019, wowaka died of heart failure at the age of 31.

wowaka produced hit Vocaloid songs such as Rollin’ Girl, Unknown Mother Goose, Unhappy Refrain, World’s End Dancehall, and much much more. He was also a guitarist in his band, Hitorie. Hitorie disclosed the news of his death to the public on April 7th.

wowaka’s music means so much to me. I discovered Vocaloid in 2014, when my entire life seemed to have fallen apart. Rollin’ Girl spoke to my then ongoing pain, as my home life was full of discord and disorder. I spent about an hour listening and crying to the song today, if I’m honest.

Because I discovered Vocaloid, I discovered MMD, and because I discovered MMD, I’ve made friends, grown as an artist, and grown as a person, as I’ve learned so much from all my experiences in the community—good and bad.

I hope that wowaka’s in heaven with samfree and powapowa, making sweet bops with the angels, where he belongs. I hope he knew the impact of his music on fans across the globe, and how grateful we all were for his existence. I hope in his final moments—even if they were likely painful—he felt peace in knowing that he had a positive influence on the music industry, so he was able to finally rest.

もうー回、wowakaさん、もうー回。

-Mod MAIKA

[alicehato]

I did it !  I model a face. A bit weird but I’m really proud of myself.  I will probably do something else. It's super relaxing to do.

[maynomu]

i am inactive but i did make some 10/10 good ART

[jananimefreak]

Eye Opener

I have no where else I can put this, so since I rarely use this website, I think I’ll post it here. 

My whole life, I’ve been raised in a homophobic household. I was raised to be homophobic. I am not. By some miracle, I grew up to be very accepting and loving of people. Of every single human being. It was hard at first, because my parents are very strict. 

I would have never admitted this, but I found out: I was in love with a girl. I was in love with a girl for a few years actually. I thought I was strictly straight. Most likely, I thought this because of how I was raised. Because of the circumstances of my house. My life dilemma. But I was, for a fact, in love with a girl. 

I’m only realizing this now because I have fallen in love once again, and these same feelings have come to me. Only for a guy this time. It’s the same feelings for that girl that I had. There are very little differences between the two feelings. 

It hit me like a bag of bricks. After a long conversation with a friend of mine, I’ve come to terms that I am bisexual. She told me that how I feel, and what thoughts have crossed my mind about this would explain a lot about me. About my quirks, my insecurities. My anxiety.

This isn’t something I can feel safe talking about anywhere else. My parents could never find out, I’m afraid of what they might do hearing my feelings. The last time I stood up for a friend of mine who was pansexual to them, I was punished severely. When I had my first panic attack, my dad broke down my door and screamed at me to shut up or he would let the cops take me away. When I became depressed and anxious for most days, my dad thought it was because I was doing drugs, alcohol, pregnant, or doing “homosexual activities”. Which he was relieved to hear none of that was true. It’s so scary to think I could be abandoned so easily by my own parents, the people that brought me into this world. So I cannot imagine what punishment I would have to endure if I were to have come out to them. 

This is something that people fight with every day. It’s not that I didn’t know that before, but it’s more like: I comprehend the situation way better. It’s horrifying and emotional and at times life-threatening. 

I have gone through many phases of trying to accept who I am, trying to accept what I’ve become. And now, I’m starting to.

[alicehato]

I’m a holiday now. I will take a little time to try something else. Put MMD aside. This is my first try : I model an ear.

[alicehato]

She looks so old OMGGG

I tried to make hair but it’s so hard !