Dec 16, 2014
I hear it. But I don't see it. I don't feel it. I don't feel anything.
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I hear it. But I don't see it. I don't feel it. I don't feel anything.
On zhe one hand I use these text posts to vent and write my thoughts down and the difference between this and a diary is the public availability that seems to validate my musings On the other bagel I don’t want people to think I’m bitching and moaning for attention I just am a lonely gremlin who talks to an internet wall like
Haven’t slept right fo a week now starting to effect things
Why can’t my crazy animation scenes go directly from my brain onto the screen? It’s 2k14 got dam
I kinda wanna throw my tablet out the window I feel like my ray’s been trash bc I don’t have the patience to properly ink and color and even the. It looks messy and blkeggHHHB
My favorite thing about Bioshock are all the little subtle things that help tell the story. If you just run through the game without exploring or reading things, you miss a significant part of the plot.
Okay! I just bought the RiD and MTMTE comics I was missing and I think I'll spend the weekend to re-read and catch up.
I'm preparing myself for heartbreak
I love, love, love this character.
Not only is she physically strong and skillful, she's mentally hardened. She's lived and seen things.
But she also has weaknesses; she's very vulnerable emotionally and views life waiting to turn on her the moment her back is turned. She is afraid of a slight touch, even the simplest gesture of politeness.
Especially romantically; any advance (however tame and maybe even without romantic intentions) leaves her mentally floundering, her mind unable to process what is happening and leaving her in such a state of confusion she actually begins to cry (usually followed by fleeing)
While she is not uneducated on how to behave in society, she is a little awkward and overly blunt, but not meanly, or more often just keeps her thoughts to herself.
She does not allow her tragic background to bleed into her actions. She does not see them as an excuse to act or a sort of privilege. She may go so far as lie about her origins. She goes by what she has seen with her own eyes, with what she knows, whether or not these things are congruent with "fact".
Often her chest aches and there is an air of sadness or 'missing-ness' that she can't place. She feels purposeless, but continues to go through the motions. Few things make her genuinely happy--calm, relaxed, and comfortable. She often longs to indulge her drinking/gambling vice but struggles with it in fear she will mimic her father.
Is she a happy person? She is content. She sounds like a someone who never laughs or enjoys the little things in life--very untrue. She loves to laugh and finds brief escape each time she does. She looks around at colors and objects and people and sees the life in them.
She just can't seem to apply it to herself