#o-nyx-m

[heytheredeexlia]

[Text] At this point, it's my trademark. \o/ [Text] So close to just keeping it at Nyx. Then you had to go overboard. I was just trying to imply that even with everything we've been through, we're okay. That is honestly shocking. Either I'm evolving or everyone else is downgrading. I am very observant, Delilah.

[ text ] SMH

[ text ] OCTOBER. Deal with it. Oh okay! That makes sense. Maybe it’s both, did you ever think of that?

[heytheredeexlia]

[Text] Overall, i suppose so. [Text] You were so close. There was no need to add the wow factor by saying my full name. I have no qualms with you, Delilah. Aside from everything else. I'm not a very good friend or so I've been told, but I can be that for you. I don't know, still feels like you duck your head every time I look at you

[ text ] So complicated :P

[ text ] Only close? No qualms aside from everything else so wouldn’t that be everything? You’ve been a bit better at it for me than basically everyone else. I don’t though. 

[heytheredeexlia]

[Text] Well, we're meeting up for the shear fact of you telling me what's on your mind, not the weather. So, I don't consider that very casual. [Text] Tell me how you really feel. This kind of rejection could kill someone.

[ text ] I still feel like that would be casual, wouldn’t it?

[ text ] You’re my friend, Nyx. October. I mean, at least I’d like to think you are. That’s not avoiding you like the plague.

[heytheredeexlia]

[Text] I don't think you enjoy hurting people, but sometimes it can't be helped because you and everyone won't always see eye to eye. So why put yourself through it. What happened? [Text] I don't know how I feel about not seeing you around. Even if you pretend to avoid me like the plague

[ text ] Too many long stories, we’d be here for days. 

[ text ] I don’t pretend to avoid you like the plague. 

[heytheredeexlia]

[Text] When has being blunt ever bothered you before? You can't please everyone and you more than anyone knows that first hand. I don't know what has happened and I don't expect you to tell me, but you can't blame yourself for it. [Text] For good? [Text] Why does that not still well with me

[ text ] It hasn’t but regardless of being blunt, I don’t like actually hurting people despite what others think. Can’t help it when it’s something you hear even after explaining things.

[ text ] Yeah. 

[ text ] Don’t know

[heytheredeexlia]

[Text] You don't have to let it. Did something happen? Are you leaving for good or is this temporary work? I suddenly have all these questions

[ text ] And what do I do then? Lots has happened and I’m just over it hurting me but when I try to protect myself or keep myself from mentally going off the deep end, I’m still a bitch for doing it. It would be for good, Nyx. 

[heytheredeexlia]

[Text] Are you referring to another situation? You can't blame yourself for other people's reactions, Delilah. That doesn't always have to fall on you. Where are you going?

[ text ] Apparently it does. That’s what been told to me in so many words. I don’t know. Maybe move to Manhattan until my run is over then head to the West Coast or to Italy. 

[heytheredeexlia]

[Text[ What can I say, I have a way with words. I guess that's the irony of it all. I saw something in you that made it worth staying. Even if it drives me up a wall when you call me by my first name and use sarcasm as a second language. I don't know what the future holds and I don't care too. Because I know now that you might not be in it. And as much as it pains me to admit that, your happiness means more to me than how I feel. So, don't worry anymore.

[ text ] It’s how I protect myself. The sarcasm anyway. It’s probably for the best since letting people in lately has screwed me over in the long run. But you might not have to worry about that soon because I’m thinking of leaving...