Hey, it's the "Obscurer" anon.
I was raised a Catholic Christian but stopped believing after my trauma (or at least the one I can remember). From my knowledge I'm not sure how that might play into the Obscurer, but if you have any ideas I'd be interested to hear them.
It's an internal voice, much like my inner monologue, except it repeats some things that are "vocally" (internally) said. It doesn't seem to be repeating anything meaningful or significant, at least to me. It more seems like an attempt to disrupt inner conversation. It only repeats certain things, sporadically. It's like an internal Tourette's, that's the best way I can describe it.
I think what I may try to do is write down what it is that the Obscurer repeats, and see if there's any sort of pattern there.
Thank you for everything.
Good idea to write down what the Obscurer repeats.
Unsolicited suggestion for when you write, also write the date, time, and if possible what was occurring. This may assist with sorting things out.
My thought is you may have stopped believing but other parts may not have. While others may hang on to a piece of the belief with the hope it will keep them safe.
Things we have been told, taught, even though we may not believe them can still play a part in how we view the world, what we think, and things we tell ourselves.
You’re welcome. Let me know if I can do anything else.
Oz