Nov 6, 2021
me: i cant possibly have chronic pain
also me: literally imagining the way my body is going to hurt if i get a job.
#like i know thats quite literally a sign of chronic pain#bc no matter how much i tell myself it isnt#im in pain with my leg bentrn#like ten minutes in any position for too long and im in pain thst i wont even take meds for.#at this point ive gained the ability to ignore it#which is why i dont think its as bad as it is#i think the eye opener for me was my pinky locking after maybe 10 minutes holding my water bottle loop and bending it hurt.#ooo also my circulation issues are making headway this year with making my feet freeze while my begs#and core of my body literally throb with how hot it is under however many blankets i use#oh! another thing#bc i dont see it described as this but#when my hands and feet are cold (i may have reynauds syndrome) it doesnt feel like the heat is seeping into me#but more like the cold of my feet or hands is cold enough to make everything around it frozen too.#im so tired#all of the time.#ugh