"NO"
There are days when my heart feels almost healed.
I can look at a recent content of Oneus and muster a smile. Yes, I'm happy that Xioni went to Disneyland again. Oh, look, another Gym Leedo selfie! Seoho is wearing that hat wrong, silly squirrel. Hurry, Keonhee is live on weverse. And Hwanwoong. Hwaneoong is showing off a Pokemon plushie.
Everything's okay. Everything's normal.
But then, they post a group photo. And my eyes unconsciously look for another. One, two, three, four, five. There's one missing.
There's one missing.
At that moment, do you know where my thoughts go?
My only thought is 'no.'
Not long winding laments. Not angry rants. Just a loud, resounding, solid 'no.'
And it has been like this since that day last year. That 'no' has not changed into 'yes,' it never will.
Because everything is wrong. They're happy, but they would've been happier. They're good, they would've been better. There's love. There should've been more love. Some people just didn’t value that love. And a spineless, hapless agency just let the disaster happen.
There's no point in blaming people sometimes.
But the one who started this mess, and the ones who first uttered that horrible OT5 fanchant when they were still 6, my resentment for you will never recede, I promise you.
