Fuck, a funny thought came to my mind, and I just LIKE to think that in addition to the amount of budget for conventional drones throughout Pentagram City, Vox has a SEPARATE budget for suicide drones that monitor Alastor. And he is known to be prone to break absolutely any recording equipment.
And okay, drones, but God, I like to think that Vox basically has an expense item PURELY for rivalry with Alastor, how to give a shit to his beloved enemy (this is foreplay)
I swear to you, Vox is financing this as its own separate PROJECT and Vees is rolling its eyes at it, but they say "whatever the child is doing, as long as it doesn't go crazy trying to kill half the city, including itself"
This is a little Hazbin Hotel AMV of Haunted by Taylor Swift that I've been working on for a while. Enjoy!
Oh, and flash warning!
Discussion under the cut
This is not mutual. Alastor does not have any romantic feelings for Vox, and don't imply that he does on this post.
I think the most interesting and tragic reading of the bar scene is that both Alastor and Vox were hurt, for very different reasons.
If you're familiar with my blog, you know that I am a firm believer that Alastor is most likely a rose-repulsed or rose-averse, non-partnering, bold stripe aroace. And a very common aroace experience is to feel betrayed when someone you thought was your friend confesses feelings that you can't reciprocate.
Alastor had a pal in Vox. He might not use the word friend, but I will. They were friends, and clearly very comfortable with each other. Alastor was content with this arrangement, and Vox wasn't.
You can see a look of shock and horror in Alastor's eyes as he realizes what Vox is asking for. Romance. Something he does not want and cannot give. They were friends. Why wasn't that enough? Why wasn't the platonic love he was giving Vox enough? No matter what Alastor gave him, it would never be enough, would it?
So, Alastor, feeling hurt and betrayed that Vox would proposition him romantically, decided to end things, to push him away. Vox either can't or won't understand that Alastor won't ever love him romantically, and the result is Alastor's cruel rejection. The severance of their relationship.
I think Vox's being upset here is very understandable to the allos. The average allo viewer is able to empathize with Vox.
But, especially if you are alloromantic, allosexual, or both, I would like you to realize that I, and many other aroaces and aspecs, cannot at all relate to Vox here, but I can relate to Alastor. I've discussed this much more at length in private, but Alastor did what I wish I had the strength to do when I was similarly betrayed by a friend.
My friend at the time knew I was aroace, and that I had no interest in dating, and that the idea of dating made me uncomfortable. And, just like Vox, my friend didn't respect that. Instead, he made constant comments that made me extremely uncomfortable. I should have told him to stop, I should have told him that I couldn't be friends with someone who kept telling me that they viewed me in that way. I should have ended the relationship, like Alastor did.
Both of them are haunted by how things ended up. Vox from romantic rejection, and Alastor from the betrayal of a friend.
I am writing a RadioSilence/OneWayBroadcast fic that is basically the following premise:
Vox: Is there a universe in which you love me
Alastor: I did love you. There isn't a universe in which I couldn't love you. But the way I loved you will never be enough for you
And the fic explores Vox and Al in different universes. Each one filled with heartache. Because Vox will always be in love with Alastor and find im impossibly attractive - Alastor will always feel like he has finally found an equal, a friend, maybe even a brother.
But the love they have for each other just isn't the same. Alastor will never reciprocate Vox's sexual and romantic feelings and Vox will long for a different relationship.
If you have any AU ideas you want me to include, please comment them. I only have 5 right now, so I desperately need more
But as a teaser, these are the ones I have so far:
Post S2 with Tablet!Vox
MurderMedia (Human Al & Human Vox)
Winner Al x Demon Vox (Al was still a serial killer - he just also died a virgin. And apparently that gives you a "go to Heaven free" card. Vox is going to Charlie's hotel because he wants to go to Heaven to be with Al. Al is still doing a lot in Hell since it's more fun there (The "Rosie is an Angel" theory is true here))
Winner Vox x Winner Al (they're both teens bonding over their special interests) (Al still killed his dad but it's fine, because that guy sure as hell ain't in Heaven)
Modern Vox and Al (They have both come out to each other, being the first person to entrust them with that information. Vox asked Al if they could maybe be queerplatonic partners. Al still felt hurt, because he felt like Vox was the first person that didn't want more than he could give. And yet, he still wasn't enough)
