there's honestly nothing more i can think of to develop her. it's been a long ride, and i've met many wonderful people that i can consider my friends. it's a hard decision but sometimes you just have to move on. violet has permitted me to really write again and in english, which is my second language. sometimes i've been trapped in her character, and i've poured a lot of myself into her. it's sometimes hard to discern what is merely fictional and what is real. and it's probably why i don't know what to do with her anymore. she's been here for a long time, many things happened this year and many of these things influenced the way i developed her. i've found myself in her.
but now, it's time to say goodbye, i think. my decision is not entirely made because i can't be completely egotistic about this. i just need to talk to people about this, the ones that helped me develop her with deep relationships. pip, kat, bee, ally and those who were here when i first started and those i met later but really did make a difference.
but i think this is it.
