A Last Update
I haven’t touched this blog in 2 years. A lot has happened since then, but I’m coming on here because of the recent news. I have some things to say, some things to wrap up, and news about Edgar, all iterations of him.
TL;DR: Edgar will live on primarily as an OC, I’m on Discord under Storm337 #2959 if you want to rp. More info at the end under the bold words.
I still love Achievement Hunter. I have loved them since I first joined the community about 5 or 6 years ago. I love Geoff, I love Jack, I love Michael and Lindsay, I love Gavin. I love the OGs, I love Ray and Kerry and Kdin and Caleb. I love the new members, I love Matt and Jeremy and Fiona and Alfredo and Trevor. I love the support staff, I love Larry and Steffie and Kent and Alec. I love the significant others, I love Meg and Caiti Kat. I still love Rooster Teeth, I still love this community, and I intend to continue to support this company right now. That may change in the future, RT has had a rough year and lord know what the future may reveal, but for right now, my love is firm.
I have never met any of these people. I saw Geoff and Gus at Comic Con, I got to ask Lindsay a question at a RT panel, but I have never interacted directly with these people. I do not know these people- I know the personas that appear online. I know their voices and I know their laughs and I know their humor, but I don’t know them. When the camera turns off, I have no idea who they are. This goes for every Youtuber, every personality I love. I know that I see, and that is it.
It is not the man that I mourn, but the persona that I became attached to. I mourn the character. I mourn the Vagabond, the Mad King, the Battle Buddy. I mourn my memories of laughing so hard my sides hurt, I mourn crying into Edgar’s back as he helped me muster the strength to stay alive, I mourn the ideas he inspired that consumed me, I mourn the hours and hours I spent daydreaming and writing and talking to anyone that would listen.
My grief is for someone that never actually existed and I know I’m not the only one. I knew someone, but it wasn’t him. It was never really him.
I condemn this man and his actions, but I will acknowledge what he gave me in all of its many forms. I’m taking it and I’m making it mine. The memories, the emotions, the ideas, the longings- I am removing his influence. It’s mine now. It’s. Mine.
WHAT DOES THIS MEAN FOR EDGAR?
Edgar, in his many forms, will continue to exist as his own entity, and I would be delighted to continue to rp him privately with people. This blog will remain for archive purposes.
I am still willing to rp with the characters that he made. I am open to any remaining Vagabonds, Mad Kings, and Battle Buddys. I am separating creation from creator. Take what is left in these ashes and build it into something separate, something good. Make it yours. As long as the tainted name and associations are removed, I will accept the character. I want to make something new with you.
All of the AUs will continue to exist. Some have been more popular than others, but I’m going to leave them all open for exploration. I am most fond of Taurus!Edgar, GTA!Edgar, Matador!Edgar, and Monster!Edgar.
Werewolf!Edgar and the entire Hearth Woods universe developed into an original idea between me and co-creator James ages ago. The AH influence lingers in some aspects, but we made this into something more, something I want to see go far, turn into something big and public and great. Right now all I have are fantasies, but I hope one day to blow it up, make it legendary. That being said- Werewolf!Edgar is available for rp, but not within the Hearth Woods universe. Hearth Woods is closed for me and James. If we welcome anyone into the story, they’ll need to be vetted first.
I know this hurts. I know this is scary. I know my pain and the pain the community feels is nothing compared to what the victims and his family are dealing with, but it is valid. Everything you are feeling is valid, and it will get better. If you never build trust with this group again, it’s okay. If you are never able to fully put your faith in them again, it’s okay. It’s all going to be okay.
If you want to talk or rp, drop a message in Discord: Storm337 #2959