#outofrepulsion

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ouat verse where carol is peau d’ane?

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i’ll be making icons of catherine deneive in the umbrellas of cherbourg so brb

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WOW IT HAS BEEN QUITE SOME TIME

anyways, like for a starter? i wanna get this blog going again!

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lmao this guy at work asked me for help and i'm cool with it and he was like, "can you finish half by today?"

bitch u been working at this project for weeks; i can finish your fucking job in hours

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sometimes i get weirded out when i realise that i completely understand carol’s repressed sexuality and her quiet hostility towards men.

i understand because sometimes i feel like in some way i go through it too. i don’t have schizophrenia though, but i know what it feels like to both be repulsed and desire men. some days i find them the most disgusting creatures ever and it has driven me to the point of actually throwing up. 

side story--this guy i met on set was all right; i was being friendly with him as i always am with people; he asked for my number and i gave it, not minding him hitting me up to go on walks since we both seemed to enjoy it. then he starts messaging me pictures of him (decent ones, btw), so I have a “collection” of him. he started to call me babe and baby, and this is when i realised that he wanted to be more than friends. he wanted sex, which i don’t want to do and it honestly repulsed me, and i threw up at the thought of him touching me, or even being with him.

somedays i long for a man, to know what it feels like--for that affection, to feel those kisses that make your heads spin, for the arguments that lead to crying and then the comfort, to the subtle touches that give you that tingle. but once i realise that, i feel disgusted again.

it’s really weird i know, but maybe that’s one of the reasons why i rp carol, it’s because i just get it, i know what she’s feeling.

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i updated my rules page, fyi!

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GOD FINALLY I REMEMBERED MY LOG IN DETAILS

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roSAMUND PIKE FOR MODERN CAROLE YES???