i dont think we talk enough but i never know what to say so im writing a letter instead. laia and i have probably exchanged a dozen or 2 of them over the years. i think letters are very underrated and i bet you probably write really good ones because your blog has such nice writing on it. THE guide on how to teleport to any coffin in the world is soo good..
you know how when i was psychotic i said i wanted to start a netlabel/art collective? i think i want to get started on actually getting it off the ground soon...maybe using tilde.town. i think it would be really good to put the coffin teleport guide and the story you told for the anon that asked 'tell me a story..'
im on the bus to wiwif now
buses, cars, planes, boats are all just rooms that arent stationary. did u hear about the train conductor who went nuts and killed 1 of his passengers? ...he had a real loco motive...
i love your perspective on places...thinking about how certain music combined with a location changes some of the jenecestquoi of them both. or like how LLN all sounds like places to me. OMG or like crumpling panoramas into squares lmao. whats your favorite room? mine is the NJ transit going home from new york, new york, especially at night. my house is so close to the train station that whemever it's that late i can walk home and it's like a 30 minute walk. i always sang midnight crew to myself on those walks home. Tommy Wiseau's favorite room when he was a kid was a basement. have u watched american psycho?
im listening 2 LLN again and this one im realizeing how many of the synths sound like voices...when i was at at the vince staples show he said something like 'the crowd is a part of the architecture...imagine how different of a place this would be with out all these people. i think i mightve still not watched the spectrogram for most of LLN...feel like i dont watch enough specgrams in general. fidget spinner probably would help. my favorite fidget toy ive had was a butterfly knife that broke eventually.
ok so a couple days have passed. today ive been listening 2 morph flux. when remembering came on i seriously thought it mightve been tapping and stuff happening outside. your music is such that i forget the source of it. AA@ thinking about music has me thinking about this EP im going to put out. it's called 'assorted love songs' and it's much the same as the last one, a bunch of short little simple cute songs and one where i sing. i will try to remember to send you the cover for it.
i forget if it was the night before or after i started writing this but i had a dream that contained both you and sam. in the dream i was on a boat for a while having dinner with sam, and it mustve been summer because when i left the boat it was still light out. then i got out and since it was low tide one of the pilings was completely exposed, and i was able to break it off and break it into splinters over my knee. then i saw you either on the beach or after i got off it. . ANYWzY I THInk that's about all i have to say for now but there's something i wanna tell u in the next one maybe.
firsly. i am going to cannibalize a previous letter i've written and never sent. i will start with a bracket and then end with an oppositely pointed bracket. ok. also, i think i'm going to, 1. send you all the questions on discord immediately after, 2. i am going to send you this as SOON as i am done with it, no putting it off omg omg .
[reread my last letter to you and so firstly! i have some things to say about it. you never answered what your favorite room was or if you had ever watched american psycho! also, i wrote something that was incorrect. "when i was at at the vince staples show he said something like 'the crowd is a part of the architecture...imagine how different of a place this would be with out all these people." and i meant that i was at the show with my brother and he said that to me! ok. ok.
Ok also becuase of rereading the letter ive decided to relisten MF and funboy is still extremely funny. Also becuase of rereading it i wanted to tell you that i like you a lot ^_^ umm idk i just like love your blog a lot and your music a lot and! im really glad i know you xx IM SOO glad about skype and exclusive like aa :]
i really what youve written about purity/innocence as something that can be nurtured/restored and lately ive been thinking about angels and majic and purity and i have this song im writing and the lyrics are basically just like "thank u for existence"
P.S.
sammy from the first paragraph here. dont forget those questions i asked back then:DAlso do you want to play chess? OH or this really cool boardgame dawn showed me called yensh or yenish. its funnnn]
now that that's over with!! i wanted to write more about the "thank u for existence" song it's really important the direction i was going for with it was "sing a prayer as good as gratefully and truthfully as possible without directly revealing tht it's a prayer" i would love to be able to come up with words for what i think about purity when i'm at the pen...i think being earnest in passion/love/in general is a big big big part of it for me. something that helps me personally feel like i'm showing as much emotion in text is 3fold repetition and typing typos a lot AND in speaking breaking grammar a lot...sometimes a sentence doesnt need a subject!! in spanish u dont always have to say "i" (translateD) before "am" (translated) because it's assumed, and i think "am feeling good" just sounds nice nd cute.
when i was younger i was sooo afraid of cuteness and real emotion...im not sure if i ever really self censored all that much but i would just avoid talking about certain topics or topics of certain weights...Which Leads me 2 something i wanted to tell u !!
ystrdy i was out walking listening to a bunch of albums random shuffled tht i had put on that same day and kimya dawson came on and !!!! i love her so so so much i am going to listen to a bunch more soon!!! and there was a point (if not multiple) where i was listening and i thought to myself "this reminds me of a cover bloodgirl did of moldy peaches" and when i got home i looked her up and!!! kimya is HALF of moldy peaches isn't that crazy. anyway i was thinking about what you said about black dresses being 'emotionally potent' and i agree very much except that is exactly my favorite kind of music (altho black dresses specifically is kind of...overproduced for me to be able to listen to them as much as i'd like to) i was thinking of . blood girl, everything by devi, and daniel johnston (but also kimya&moldy peaches who i need 2 listen to) and i was curious if you had other particular musicians or albums that fit the description of emotional potency. hmm all this walk talk reminds me of that i wanted to tell you something :D
i was out walking listening to a bunch of albums random shuffled tht i put on my phone andd. i spent some time looking up (65-85 degreez probly) and passing by trees or streetlights or w.e a lot of them looked a lot lot lot prettier!! i get such strong feelings from going on walks and seeing such pretty things that i never do in my bedroom and it makes me want to go on walks more but i am so forgetful and my room is so comfortable...lately it feels a bit like i'm wasting time whenever i'm not working on music...THIS PROMPTED ME TO WORK ON MUSIC FOR A WHILE AND FORGET ABOUT THE LETTER SO IM SENDING IT NOW AHHH
oh i didnt mention but idk i rlly wanna work on stuff w. you maybe i should actually learn ableton or something ... the way tht tracks don't rlly quantize easily was sooo annoying nd put me off of it for several months the last time i worked on it . i'll def b less annoyed w. it now tht i'm not a total newb and i have a variety of sound fonts + like 1 or 2 (lol) soft synths tht im comforble wifth.
