as requested, or i threatened to, a post to my lovely honey bunches of oats:
bro. brO. you're the best person ive ever known. I haven't known you for long, but i mean, you're my best friend and i fucking love you. You're adorable, sweet, smart, and simply the best person i could ever know. You're very charming as well. I don't know what i would do without you. I don't know what to say considering 1. Ive told you this many times and i dont want to sound repetitive lol 2. I'm sleepy but yeah i love you until i die. I dont fucking care how we end up, as long i still talk to you, im happy. I love when you smile as well. aaaaaahhhhh it makes my heart melt and it makes me smile too. you're amazing and to be honest, sometimes im afraid that i like you more than you like me.... pls dont be mad if i ever doubt you ok? you know i have trust issues and anxiety and people easily get into my head. But ill try to be better with that. I want to have a sleep over with you yeah? lets buy a pizza, movies, and lets just huddle under a blanket and sleep and give tiny fish kisses! (idk those tiny kisses remind me of litto fishies!) idk man, i just wanna say that ive lost some friend bc of us but whatever. just bc we are besties doesnt mean im a different person so they shouldnt be mad.. sorry about the whole thing that happened before (you know?) i didnt wanna but everyone was like "DANIELLA HES BAD HES A JERK LEAVE HIM" and idk i was scared and i did it so everyone would leave me alone. i regretted it. i still do but w/e.. we are close af and it scares me that anything could ruin that. (hence why i apologize a lot) idk like i said earlier, sometimes i feel i like you more than you like me.MAYBE IDK OK. High and Dry is our song now ok? i already decided. but yeahhhh i kinda need to figure things out but idk lol im having a tiny panic attack BUT IM OK. and please remember that i love you bro. and that you are amazing, special, charming, and simply great. [[insert entire Die in Your Arms song by JB here]] Please sleep for once haha. and and be happy ok? i try my hardest to make you happy and i hope that when we are together that you are...BC IF YOU ARENT I WILL be sad. omg basement... i will never live that down. noR THAT NOISE YOU MADE AHAHAHA. wow we have too many memories.... ok yeah idk what else to write??? OH THANKS FOR TODAY IT WAS FUNNNNN yeah yeah yeahhhh ROAD TRIP OK PLS DONT FORGET I WILL CRY. [[[btw i still have the screenshots and the old pics of us]]] yeah. this week will be funnnnnnnn. idk man im really glad i met you even though we had our ups and downs. life would not be the same without you. sometimes, at night, i get really scared that one day you will just not like me the way you do now and just leave. idk man i just dont want that to happen.also, when i ask you hows it going and you say eh im like FUCK ITS BC OF ME I RUINED IT HE HATES ME, but then im like lol nah. and and when you text me simple word texts i also panic bc i think im annoying you but idk if i am or not. sorry if i am though pls dont hate me i just like talking to you thats all. i want to forever be your bfff and idk youre really the only person i have left and the only person i can tell ANYTHING and i trust you. without you, im hopeless. i hope you have a nice night babycakes [[omg that old nickname though]] and yeah pls be happy and never think youre nothing. I LOVE YOU. [[[[that basement though]]]]
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also, when you tell me i do cute things im like lol wot. I MEAN IM JUST BEING ME SO THATS WHY I GET MAD BC LIKE NO. and i do "that thing" to make you mad bc youre adorable when youre frustrated lol. and when you call me like i get so excited and when you tell me you hav to leave i get really sad bc either i still wanna talk or i feel like i bored you (i probably do bc i dont talk much after a while) but yeah. AND IM SORRY THAT I GET ALL RUDE WHEN YOU COMPLIMENT ME I JUST LIKE PANIC GET ALL BLUSHY AND MY HEART GETS WEIRD AND IM INSECURE SO LIKE I EITHER DOUBT YOU (like i said before dont get mad) OR I JUST TRY TO HIDE MY DORKY SMILE. but yeah youre really sweet for putting up with my rudeness and my sudden outbursts of trying to be all up on you. tbh about those screenshots, i read them a lot idk they are cute. IDK WHAT I WANT TO DO WITH YOU JA FEEL? LIKE WHAT I SAID IN THE BASEMENT LOL. ok i think im done... i love you and pls dont ever leave me alone on this crappy world. oh right.. Japan right?!
