“Each of my thoughts about you are improper.” It is Thomas' voice, in a dream that is not a dream, for her but not /her/.
@paradisecost ; an asK that is nearly two years old
And what if she feels this way forever, blessed and cursed with the memories of a love that felt like hers but were not meant for her? What is it to be loved so completely without shame or embarrassment only in the hollow past she had never lived, and know that she is not the right shape to feel those things, or have them or hold them?
Thomas is never seen, only heard. Only felt.
And Darcy wonders if there’s some connection, there, between his lack in her memories, and how often she can see and touch and feel and taste Silver.
(and wouldn’t she trade the two of them in a second? Without hesitation?)
(wrong body wrong voice wrong fingers wrong hair wrong eyes wrong thighs and every part of her is wrong wrong wrong for him, but for SILVER --)
(WHY TRADE WHAT YOU KNOW YOU HAVE FOR SOMETHING YOU COULD NOT BE WORTHY TO HOLD)