Sun square Part of Fortune Natal
Sun in Sagittarius in the 4th House square Part of Fortune in Libra in the 2nd House.
Since I was 18 I have been struggling. I birthed 4 beautiful babies by the time I hit 25. I had my son Donovan a month before my 19th birthday, my daughter Ashlynn was born 1 month after I turned 21, Allynia was born 1 month before my 23rd birthday, and Ayriel was born when I was 24. Being financially stable with 4 kids and minimal support has been a battle for quite sometime. Fortune does not come easily for me. I do not have the supportive loving family to bail me out when things get tough, I don’t get handouts. Everything that I have I have busted my ass for. I used to think that I was just a cursed individual. It makes sense as my name is Kirsten...family members and those close to me call me “Kirst”. Throughout this hardship it makes one with this aspect become frustrated and envious, drowning in their own self pity. In reality, these are the cards I have been dealt, I made choices and I have to figure out how to live with them. I’ve learned that this hardship gives me the motivation to try harder, to work harder towards my own good fortune.
I hated life for a long time, I felt like I just existed and I still feel like that from time to time, but I also feel like I am making progress. I realized that I have been working hard for material gain and not spiritual gain. Until I realized this I was drowning in constant disappointment and it caused me to be bitter and negative. This closes you off from receiving good fortune. All these materials things that we think we need, all these voids we are trying to fill in ourselves and in our children don’t work. Good fortune comes from within, until you recognize that, you won’t be able to be satisfied and grateful for the things that you do have. When you realize good fortune comes from within you are happy and satisfied with having little. You can’t take your things into the next life, but you do take what you’ve done and didn’t do into the next life, so what’s the point of focusing on all this “stuff”? When you can focus on being a better person for your kids and those around you.