ANGEL PT 4 - AFYCSO! RYAN ROSS
summary - the night after practice you learn about the note, and read it, lifting a weight off your heavy heart
- fluff, fem! reader, crush confession, perv thoughts, sexual thoughts, tell me if i left out something
a/n: hi ik this is lowk losing the poll but I had to make a birthday gift so heh 🥹
Lying in your bed that night, the rain dripping down your window as you read in silence, you get distracted, Ryan claiming his way into your mind. He was hard to read, and a part of you felt drawn to that, but a part of you also wondered when he would let his guard down.
As much as you tried to keep your mind on the endless pages of your book, what filled your mind was only thoughts of him. The way his eyes followed you around like a sweet little puppy, how his fingers glided across the fretboard with ease.
You couldn't help but feel perverted as your mind wandered to what else his hands were capable of. Long and pale, so confident on the guitar, but all you wanted was to imagine them tremble as they glided down your body, unsure as they grab your waist, or slotting between your legs.
Or the thought of the plush lips that sang out, now whispering your name like a chant into your neck, crying out the words like a mantra, setting him into a trance, or attached to your neck, leaving hot red marks across your collar.
Your daze was interrupted by giggles from the other side of your walls.
Maddie, your band member, best friend, AND roommate, was up as well, on the phone with someone most likely. You walk into her room on tired out legs, wondering what she was getting up to.
You enter, and she smiles at you, “Dude! Say hi to Jon, he's on the phone” she's so excited about it, you almost forget about your troubles with Ryan.
“Hi Jon, it was nice to see you today” you say, trying to be polite. He was a sweet guy, you were happy for Maddie.
“Hi, how are you? You found the note?” wait. Note?
When you got home, all you were worried about was getting into bed with your book that you hadn't even unpacked your bag.
“The silence right now is telling my you haven't.” he chuckles “Just look in your bag, its from Ryan”
“Oh um, ok, ill go check that out, I'll leave you guys, ok? Have fun, Mads” You leave, still tired but anticipation ignited in your bloodstreams with every stride.
When you entered your room, you sat down on the floor, rummaging through your bag until you saw a small note tucked in next to your perfume.
You opened it gently, reading it carefully. It was short, but all you needed to have yourself flushed and rushing with happiness. Although you had to admit it was a tiny bit cheesy, cheesy was way better than being left in the dark.
You grab your phone and enter Ryan's number that Brendon had given you, apparently all of them are wingmen.
It rings once, then twice, then “Hi, who's this?” his voice melted away the tension that you didn't know you had been keeping
“H-hi Ry, it's me” goddamn stutter. You can practically hear his grin on the other side of the line.
“Oh! Hi! Hi, uh yeah it's nice to hear from you” Ryan huffed out, just as nervous.
“Um so I'm guessing it wasn't just him making up shit?” you both chuckle
“Uh yeah, yeah I'm sorry about that. I guess I should explain a bit” he breathes in gently, trying to calm himself “So um, I'm really sorry about kind of icing you out today, I've kind of had a crush on you, which sounds so stupid to say but it's true. I've basically been sharing everything with the boys, so when Brendon teased me, it made me really nervous. But I tried to hide how I felt cause number one, it's scary as fuck” You both laugh “Um, but also, I didn't want you to think I only wanted you to open for us cause Im attracted to you, you're so talented, and I wouldn't want you to think that you can only achieve these things cause your beautiful.”
He's met with a soft silence; your cheeks are burning at his open confession “P-please say something. Y-you're all I think about”, he says in a timid voice.
You blush gently, but your mind takes over, trying to see how far you can take this
“What do you think of when you think of me, Ry?” you say in a soft, seemingly innocent voice
“Um, us together” he says, followed by a soft gulp
“You can tell me, sweetie, I won't judge”
He lets out a breathless laugh, the pet name rushing red right towards his face “I think of the stuff we'd do alone, and what I'd want to make you feel” he says, breathing nervously, tiptoeing around his perverted mind to find a sentence that gives you a hint without making himself sound like the creep he felt like
“Ryan, I've liked you forever, you know that, right?” you say softly “And, I think about that stuff too”
Ryan lets out a large gush of air, the pit in his stomach slowly piecing itself back together “That's, that's really good to hear, actually” You both chuckle softly
“I'm really excited to see you tomorrow.” He lets out.
You smile softly to yourself, “Me too, Ry”
“Oh, also, what costume do you want to wear tomorrow? Bren's been nagging me about it”
You chuckle on the other line, “I'm not sure, actually. Do you have anything in mind?”
Ryan smiles to himself, “Yeah, yeah, I do actually”
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Going out shopping with Maddie was always an energy-draining activity. You loved your best friend, but she was very much an extrovert, and you were very much not.
Leading up to Pete's party, you had gotten ready with the girls, helping each other with styling and makeup and such.
“Do you think Jon will like it?” Maddie said, looking into her vanity as you helped with her hair
“You look gorgeous, Mads. If he doesn't like it, he's an idiot” She smiles and turns around to hug you.
Once you were each dressed, Gen started the car, listening to Panic's album
“Dude, at this point I'm gonna get sick of themmmm”, Cara groaned, making the rest of us laugh
“Don't say that!” Mads chuckles, “I'm so excited for tonight, guys, it's gonna be so good”
The rest of us hummed in agreement, although nerves still curled up your spine.
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The place was gorgeous, and not to mention HUGE. Who knew Wentz had it like this?
Speaking of, as you each got the porch you were met with him and his signature smile “Guys! How are you? Nice to meet you!” he hugs each of you with a warm embrace, letting you in
“Didnt know you lived in a Hotel Wentz” Cara grinned
“You flatter me Cara” he chuckled
As soon as you enter the living space your nostrils are invaded with the smell of bud, alcohol and sweaty bodies.
“There should be a deodorant policy holy shit” Gen coughed out
“I know right” you reply.
Your eyes search the room for Ryan and when you finally find him, his eyes are already on you, mouth agape. You can't help but drift towards him in slow strides as he does the same, meeting in the middle of a room with mindless bodies, moving to the beat of the music from one of Pete's old speakers.
When he meets you he grabs your hand gently “But soft, what light through yonder window breaks?” he kisses the tip of your hand softly, red rose meeting your cheeks.
“Hi Romeo” you smile, glancing over his scrap metal armour and brown boots, only to meet his browner eyes.
“Youre beautiful” he lets out like he needs you to hear it, because he did, he needed you to know just a sheer amount of the devotion that weighs on his heart, only reserved for you, his Juliet.
