help to make the season bright || self-thread
WHO: Patrick Flanagan
WHERE: Patrick's apartment
WHEN: The 24th of December
WHY: Patrick is struggling to get festive, but maybe - just maybe - he'll get there in the end.
SONG INSPIRATION: Nat King Cole - The Christmas Song (Merry Christmas To You)
Patrick Flanagan sat in his dimly lit apartment, nursing a tumbler of whiskey that had long since lost its bite. Outside, the streets of Los Angeles sparkled with Christmas cheer - strings of colored lights glimmered in apartment windows, and carolers’ voices drifted up from the sidewalk below. It was a far cry from the sterile hum of prison lights or the cold stone streets of Glasgow where he’d grown up. Not even Christmas in Vegas felt right. But Patrick didn’t care. He’d stopped caring about Christmas a long time ago.
Two years in prison had hardened him further, though he thought he was already granite before they locked him up. What softened him now was the quiet - a deafening, nagging sort of silence that followed him like a shadow. His mother had been gone for three years, murdered during a robbery gone wrong back in Glasgow, just weeks after he’d been arrested in Las Vegas. That ache never went away, no matter how many drinks he poured or how many bitter curses he whispered under his breath.
The smell of pine wafted faintly from somewhere outside. Patrick’s neighbor had dragged a fresh Christmas tree up the stairs earlier that day, her kids chattering excitedly about Santa Claus as they passed his door. He’d ignored their cheery greetings, retreating further into the solitude of his apartment. Now, the faint scent only made him feel more alone.
He stood and walked to the window, staring down at the street below. Families bustled along the sidewalks, arms full of shopping bags and wrapped gifts. The sound of bells jingling from a Salvation Army volunteer’s bucket mixed with snippets of carols from a nearby speaker. The warmth of it all grated on his nerves, but beneath the irritation was a hollow ache he couldn’t ignore.
Patrick glanced at the corner of his living room, where a small cardboard box sat unopened. It had arrived two days ago, addressed to him in neat, unfamiliar handwriting. He hadn’t had the nerve to open it yet. He wasn’t sure who would even send him something; he’d burned most of his bridges years ago. But curiosity gnawed at him now.
With a resigned sigh, he crossed the room and knelt by the box. He sliced through the tape with a kitchen knife and pulled back the flaps. Inside was a small, artificial Christmas tree, complete with a string of battery-operated lights and a handwritten note.
“Patrick,
Christmas is a time for second chances, for remembering the good in the world and in yourself. Let the light of this tree remind you of what truly matters - love, hope, and the kindness you still have to give. Merry Christmas.”
There was no signature, no indication of who it was from. Patrick sat back on his heels, staring at the note. His first instinct was skepticism - a joke, maybe, or some misguided act of charity. But as he read the words again, he felt something shift. Something quieter. Warmer.
Patrick set the note aside and pulled the little tree from the box. It was a cheap thing, its plastic branches slightly bent from being crammed in the packaging. But as he set it on the coffee table and wound the lights around it, he couldn’t deny the small spark of life it brought to the room. He flicked on the lights, and the tiny bulbs twinkled softly, casting a gentle glow that seemed to soften the edges of the apartment.
He sat back on the couch, the whiskey forgotten on the table. For a long time, he just stared at the tree, letting its quiet presence fill the space. The scent of pine from his neighbor’s tree mingled with the faint glow of the lights, and for the first time in years, the silence didn’t feel so suffocating.
Patrick leaned forward, resting his elbows on his knees. He didn’t know who had sent the tree, and maybe it didn’t matter. What mattered was the flicker of something it had sparked in him - a reminder that, despite everything, there was still good in the world. And maybe, just maybe, there was still good in him, too.
“Merry Christmas, Mum,” he murmured, his voice barely above a whisper. And for the first time in a long while, the words didn’t feel like a lie.