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I don’t get how some people say they feel refreshed after crying a lot. All I feel afterward is fatigue, gummy eyes, a plugged up nose, and a massive headache, AND the problem still exists

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i Love drawing pokemon so i mean..,...would be a Very welcome commission imo

Even big ugly dinosaur-looking motherfuquors? Bc I’ve got an Aggron on my team who is an absolute Party Animal

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Something you never really hear much about in discussions of depression is how much it alters your sense of time? Every day seems so short, but each moment seems so long. Six months from now doesn’t feel like it’s that far away (since every day is the same so of course it’ll be the same by then too), but things that happened six months ago feel like years have passed since then.

Since every day feels so short, whenever I wake up in the morning my brain compartmentalizes the whole day so it feels like the whole day is over before it even begins: “I’m gonna go to work, then I’m gonna come home and lay in bed blankly staring at my laptop screen for a few hours, then it’ll be bedtime again, so today’s basically over.” Then it repeats the next day, and the day after that, and the day after that. Every day is the same muddy static of blunted emotions on repeat, so time doesn’t really mean anything anymore, which makes it so much easier to get stuck

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Short vent that turned into a long vent under the cut bc?? The shit is bananas (RIP if you’re on mobile, my bad)

(TL;DR: I have a coworker who I really don’t want to hang around, but she’s attached herself to me and there’s no escape or good way to fix it)

When I transferred to my new library, one of my new coworkers was helping me a lot and being really friendly, so she invited me to lunch, and I went bc I appreciated how helpful she was

But by the end of the day she started talking a bunch of mess?? Like, she asked me (bc I’m black) “why black people get mad whether you call them black or African American”, and how she can’t remember the cleaning staff’s names bc they’re all Asian and “all Asians look the same”, so of course by then I was like 😟😰🤔🤔🤔

But at that point I was in too deep apparently, so since then she invites me to eat lunch on our lunch break with her every day, hunts me down in the building to talk to me for hours while I’m trying to do work, writes me signed sticky notes at all the service points (where our coworkers AND CUSTOMERS can see them), overshares about herself and her husband and son to the point where it’s uncomfortable, calls me her “best friend” even though we’ve only known each other for exactly one month, says random off-the-wall ominous shit in the MIDDLE of otherwise normal conversations (“just so you know, if you ever need to vent, I’m ALWAYS all ears!”) wants to think of a clique name for us and this other new girl who started around the same time as me, and sent me 4 chapters of a book she’s writing where wives are bound to their husbands by slave bonds or some shit???

AND of course, inevitably, she wants to get lunch together on a day we’re off from work (which I’ve been able to dodge so far, but it’s getting tricky), so she asks me what my plans are EVERY WEEKEND and won’t take the hint that I don’t want to

So the best thing to do would just be honest with her and tell her how I feel, but I have social anxiety so THAT’S impossible, plus then it seems like I’m an asshole bc she just wants to be friends?? But I just ain’t with the shits at all, especially trying to hang out on our days off, no ma’am

Or I could talk to my supervisor and see if she could do anything, but that would take it to a whole new level and just bring up a bunch of unnecessary drama, plus we’re still coworkers, so anything I do, I’ll have to live with the effects until one of us gets promoted/fired/transferred somewhere else

Soooooooo. Long story short, it’s a mess 🤷‍♀️

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There’s nothing worse than when you’re at work and a customer says “enjoy the rest of your weekend!” or something, while you’re sitting there at work for the rest of the weekend

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With each passing day that I have to go to my retail job, the urge to do some dumb shit so I get fired rises exponentially

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Dear diary: today I narrowly escaped colliding with every other car on the road after seeing a 3 to 4 inch spider crawl across my windshield and realizing it was INSIDE

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Number 1 on the list of Workplace Mishaps that you Just Can’t Fucking Make Up: a coworker asking you if you have facebook and saying yes even though you haven’t logged on in years (bc you can’t really lie about not having a facebook that since they can just search your name), but forgetting that the last time you were active was around 2012, so one of the top things on your timeline is homestuck porn that your friend posted to your wall