If you try to solve all of your problems yourself, you're gonna break sooner or later. Wednesday was the first day I told someone about my assumption that I have depression. I told them that I have been holding this in fucking two and a half years and it felt good. It felt good to finally tell someone. They told me that I can talk to them whenever I feel really bad and that I could come over.
I know that some of you probably don't have that much luck with people they can trust enough that they will understand but I hope you still find someone you can trust and you can tell. Find solutions, talk or just cuddle and cry. It doesn't matter as long as it makes you feel better.
I know the feeling that you don't want to bother and anoy anyone with your feelings but you are not the one responsible for how you feel. You are the one who can change how you feel. Alone or with help, hopefully you try soon so your mental illness can't break you fully.
As long as you have a little control of your mind it isn't too late to try and talk to someone about what's going on in your head. Believe me, it will make you feel much better. And if you need someone to talk to I will be here for you.