sadly, i think life sucks. Today is shit, last week is shit, next year looks shit, and nothing seems to go in my favor. I experience so much body detriment, and I hate the way the people I love eat, and everyone's lives seems so in my way. I never get to relax, and my hands are dirty, and there's sense of dread that fills my head about the people I've lost because of who i am. I will never kiss him properly, i will never be able show their body the love it deserves. And i will never again wake up in her bed, and never again gaze into her soft brown eyes and tangled hair, and never again regret the late night she and i had before this morning and laugh about it, and never again think about what things i want to buy her as her sleepy body is tangled in the mess we made of the bedsheets.
But.
Tomorrow the sun will rise. And the wind will blow. And the people will work. And the cars will drive. And the sandwiches will taste good. And the trees will shake, the animals will eat, and skittles will be made in their factory. And the life we live will keep living.
Things will change, and maybe for the worse. We can not let yesterday or tomorrow or even today affect right now. And maybe right now is this moment, this minute, this day, weekend, week, month, season, year. But whatever it is, for you, do not let your view on right now fade away.
Because someone still loves you. And even if you're 1000% sure that isn't the case, its true. And that someone, wants to see you keep going, so that they can see you.
