its now or never.
I've been brought up to stand up for my beliefs, to think for myself and be the author of my own story, essentially not to let other people push me around and tell me what to do, this is all good and well when real things, important things are involved but what about trivial things? what about homework/course work, what about that?
what do I do then?
Listen to my instincts or do what my head says, the first would get me into plenty of trouble and latter perhaps academic gain but what do you do when your stubborn heart rules and your brain is just another over shadowed advisor? what then?
well I guess I know the answer to that already, listen to the advisor just so you dont have to admit defeat, and in this case, it means stop messing around and actually do the tedious work that I've been set - its not fun, or intriguing, its not even vaguely enjoyable. I like writing, I do, I like seeing the words flow from tip of my thoughts to my finger tips and as if by magic appear on the screen, it gives me joy when other people read it and make comments about it, but this type of writing which I know wont even be read, it bores me, there is no room for creativity, there is no room for shab, just lots of space for monotony.