#pretendingtobe

[numeg]

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4th of July, 2019 📸:@beejx #pretendingtobehappy #pretendingtobe #atthebeach #pretending (at Laguna Beach, California) https://www.instagram.com/p/B_qdp8oJevI/?igshid=g7dovlc3yo9m

[shannonvarechristine]

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[gabriel-way]

You can't see what you are

When Alice tried to open a door it disappeared and she was blinded by white bright light. With her eyes closed the girl stood there for a few minutes. Time could be different in that place, though.

Gathering all her bravery Alice finally opened her one eye then the other. The light was gone. The girl looked into the room and didn't see white walls as she expected. The walls were all black and it was really hard to see anything in there. At first the light blinded her. Now it was the darkness. The girl went forward carefully but she couldn't reach the opposite wall.Then Alice noticed something in the corner. It was moving.

''Who are you? Are you God?'' she shouted. It was a sign next to door with little neat handwriting on it that read “God”.

''Are you God?'' she heard in response.

This voice seemed to be both familiar and strange at the same time. While Alice tried to remember a person with a similar voice the memories went through her head. And the color of the walls started to change from red to purple with different tints.

''Where are you?'' Alice asked.

''Where are you?'' something or someone asked her.

''I'm in the God's room'', the girl answered doubtfully.

''I'm in the God's room.''

Alice turned around. Nothing. No moves, no shadows. So she decided to go farther trying not to bump into something. And then she saw something in the corner again.

''Who are you?'' Alice yelled.

''Who are you?'' a shadow mocked her.

Alice looked around. At first she thought this room didn’t have walls and was infinite. But now wherever she looked she saw corners. And in every corner there was something or someone.

''This isn’t a room. This is some kind of a torture for me. What is happening? I don't even remember how I got here'', she thought. ''And I can't come back. There are no doors.''

Her thinking was interrupted by something cold and hard she bumped in walking. The wall.

''So it's not infinite'', the girl exhaled looking relieved.

''Infinite'', the voice said.

''Silly games!'' Alice started to rage. ''I am not a child!''

''A child!''

''No! No no no!'' she screamed shaking her head and starting to cry. ''I am a grown-up! I won't play with you! Let me go! Stop it!''

Alice sat on the floor covering her face with hands.

''Stop it!'' silence was broken by God's word.

The girl didn't stop crying. She continued sobbing even louder. 

Then the room was shined with bright light that was in the beginning. But it was gone in a second leaving the walls all pale grey. Alice put her hands down. Her face was wet because of the tears.

Still coming to her senses the girl raised her head and saw that light left something else. There was a big mirror in front of her. And a little girl wearing a blue dress inside of it looked at Alice with tear-stained face. And also there was a toy near to her. The white rabbit.

''I want to go home'', Alice said.

''Home'', the girl in the mirror repeated.

[gabriel-way]

Just wrote a 491 words delusional "story" in Russian. I'll try to translate it in English so no one could read it if they want.

[gabriel-way]

I'd like to listen to Lana Del Rey  While lying next to you. But you do not exist. And I am messed up one.

So I'm just sitting in the darkness. Thoughts are coming through. Future, present, past. What matters in the end?

I'm closing my eyes tight Willing to hear silence but I'm dreaming about you... Listening to Lana Del Rey.

[gabriel-way]

You think you want to talk to someone But you realise that, actually, you don't. You think you want to do something But you don't want to at the same time.

You want to think about one thing But something different comes to your mind. You want to go away somewhere But you'll bring yourself with you anyway.

So what do you want? "I don't know." So what are you gonna do? "I don't know."

This is the common state of yours. This is the whole your life. Living by pushes from others, Under the pressure.