#privtwt

[limebastard]

man someone should write a particular fic where owen doesnt die at the beginning and gets recruited by chimera anyway (excitement) -> maybe that someone has to be me (apprehension) -> realizing that means id have to write established relationship (HORROR)

[limebastard]

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started taking new nighttime adhd meds -> maybe took them too early and woke up at 5am -> accidentally stumbled across a radfem blog and pissed myself off for an hour reading through a blog full of the worst opinions id ever seen -> want to go back to sleep but cant stop thinking about how i want to shower

like today is gonna be so nice i get to hang out with my beloved friend and then i get to watch the fucking buddiesode

also re the terf post i cant stop thinking about how much terfs and radical feminists hate women and i want to make like. an actual post about it. your politics are rooted in the belief that women are inherently and immutably inferior to men. you are so so so so so so so so so stupidd

unrelated im just dumping my thoughts bc the journal factory exploded but im thinking also about how much i really like the saf fandom...... ive had such wonderful conversations on here and i put tags on someone elses post and they were so nice. thinking back to when i put tags on that buddie post and got told i was stupiddd. i love to talk and have discussion....... i love you spies

[limebastard]

this week was emotional whiplash city. super bowl which involved a lot of unpleasant driving -> horrible depression era -> manager meeting for yearly review (went well) -> ex best friends birthday which i will never forget the date of unfortunately -> dad's birthday immediately after -> friday the thirteenth -> valentine's day

[limebastard]

so depressed rewatching time bastard to feel something

[limebastard]

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i actually just had a waking nightmare about an ex friend can i please just forget about them. they do not care about me why can my brain not accept that. i havent been checking up on them i try not to think about them at all it isnt even the friend i considered my best friend for years it's his goddamn wife who never liked me holy shit. i feel sick too it was such a horrible dream can someone please put me down

[beexnxboo]

wilbur's privtwt tl:

[beexnxboo]

i'm having fun