Can someone help me with this?
I have a problem, well, I guess you can call it a psychical problem.Okay, I’m just going to try to write this down. I’m sorry for some mistakes! Thanks for reading. :)
I don’t do drugs, not at all, just sayin.
Well.. it starts with something I see, read or hear. For example: My friend convinced me to watch The Walking Dead. I had heard a lot about it and so many people thought it was good, so I said yes and we started watching. I watched it in the afternoon.
I felt a bit.. strange after watching it. I cannot describe this feeling, it was just weird. But I just tried to ignore that. Anyway, when I went to bed in the evening, I thought about The Walking Dead again. I thought about zombies. I remembered every zombie I had seen. I couldn’t get it out of my head. I started to sweat because I just pulled my blanket up to my head. I feel safer when I do that. But it was just horrible, I tried to focus on other things but it didn’t work out, zombies would cross my mind every time. My sister’s bedroom is right next to mine and there’s a door to a small balcony in her room. That door is mostly opened in the evening so her room gets some fresh air. So every time I heard a noise I thought it was a zombie who had just come in through that door and who was walking towards my door. It got worse and worse. I even was afraid to move.
This thing went on for a few months. It was horrible. I always closed the door to the balcony in my sister’s room and I still do. I was afraid to open a locked door because I thought a zombie was standing right in front of it. Whenever I read or heard the word zombie, I started to panic. One time, I was alone in my house, it was in the evening. I just sat in the living room, hoping for my parents to come back. Every time I looked outside I saw a creature, a zombie, that was looking at me. I was so scared a zombie would come into my house. It still scares me when I think about that. I told my parents about it, but I didn’t tell them the whole story. Seriously, would you? :D I didn’t tell anyone else, except my best friend. My other friends would have laughed at me. You’re scared of zombies, how embarrassing is that?
Luckily, I was able to focus on other things again. Lord of the rings came into my life and that kinda helped me. :) But it was a tough experience, I lost a little bit of spontaneity because I was so paranoid, especially at night. I still worry way too much, I still imagine monsters and ghosts and I think every little thing I hear or see is a sign that something bad is going to happen. Sometimes I get the feeling I’m going to die like.. right now. Or that something’s going to happen. Believe me, this is one of the worst feelings in the world. It scares me so much.
I am still very sceptical when it comes to horror movies or stories. I saw this article about this puppet that moved and stuff on tumblr. (Idk the whole story, I stopped reading after a few sentences) And although I had only read a few sentences, I was so scared at night that some of my stuffed animals that are in my bedroom would move. The thing is that in the morning and in the afternoon, basically when it’s bright outside, I am mostly not scared at all. But as soon as it gets dark and I go to bed, I am afraid. I am also insanely scared of being buried alive because I watched a movie with only ONE scene where someone was buried alive. It was such a short scene and all my friends weren’t scared at all.
Sorry if this text is a bit messy. :(
But anyway, I hope you understand what my problems are. My question is: Does anyone know if this is a issue that can be diagnosed in any way? Like, is there a name for this? Because it’s not completely paranoia, I think. Or are those things simply diagnosed as delusions? Does anyone have the same problem/familiar problem as me?
I’d be so thankful if someone helped me because I don’t know a lot about this stuff.. So, thanks for reading and thank you for your help!