what is your biggest regret?
"regret, regret, regretregretregret." he repeats the word, rolls it around in his mouth like a marble; the taste itself tart and salty. what is his biggest regret? how far back is one supposed to look inward oneself for that? chaehwi drags the blunt of his nails over the side of his neck as he thinks, really thinks. back to the first he's ever felt helpless, where it all went wrong; his very first failure. namely, the beginning of his plight. "i should've tried harder," he speaks, voice thick with some raw unnamed emotion. in this instance, he's never sounded more boy than man. "i should've begged, i should've slit my own throat on the damned arena floor—" i should've done all that and more rather than watch my siblings tear into each other. "i should've stopped chaeson from ever entering those doors."