Ugh I can't help it that my desire to be a girl predates my sexual maturation and expression as a homosexual cissex d00d--at this [post]mod3rN time in technological herstory where definitions and identity that previously held static are now having cataclysmic effects on perceived realities and just...xxxxxxxxxx Sometimes I don't want to align this sex organ I was born to with the culture of central and visible masculinity!!!! As much as I objectify, idolize, commercially worship, capitalize all this hyper sexualized, perhaps fetishized masculine energy, it ALWAYS comes back to just how badly I want U to just make love to every part of my being when I'm vulnerable to you Like tenderly acknowledge my ancestry, and my spirit, my lives and my paths, my battlescars and my outlines, my friends and every part of my body Unprofessional and cold and beaded by sweat I'm carrying my crosses and Its what I have to carry to have emblematic of self respect You have to see my eyes if you want to look at my tender queer ravine bu